why I take my meds. I didn't reorder in time, and have been several days without the dosage that makes a difference. This is how it feels, when my brain chemistry is out of whack, and the subtle little whispers begin to remind me of untrue things, about my character and general unworthiness, the mystery of what's so wrong with me that no one comes to my parties or remembers I exist, if I am not in front of them at the moment... the inevitability of futility and disappointment, should I dare to... Sign in to see full entry.