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Thursday, October 23, 2008

Especially for you Taps

Though I am nowhere near completion of just about anything in my life, I thought I would post something I wrote a long time ago -- it being autumnal and all that.. Rainbow Another rainbow At the mid-point of Autumn, A cold, rainy late afternoon, Quite like the wintry one When we saw our rainbow... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

And did I make that appointment ? - no of course not

I must, in the words of the venerable johnmacnab, give myself a talking to. Wasn't I going to go and see my temp agency? Ah, but that was before I took myself off to the South of France for a good talking-to by my daughter. It's a lovely part of the world, and that's all I'm going to say about the... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Well they might have told me

I learned over the weekend that -- hey presto -- my claim for incapacity benefit has been rejected. Reason: I haven't paid enough NI contributions in the relevant three tax years, which run up to April 2007. Considering I told them I arrived home in the UK in early December before any of this... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Remaking the Rainbow

I'm not as together as I thought. An straightforward letter from the Jobcentre about a compulsory Work Focused interview set me to shakiness again, the all-too-familiar tension in my upper body, my arms, and my hands which, though tense, are even now trembling as I type. I am not crying, but the... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Quaking

6pm Sunday evening: Okay, so I've paid for my excess baggage on-line, and checked in, also on-line, and booked the taxi, and kissed my 6' 4'' baby as he heads off for a nap after his busy shift... I've taken my best friend out to lunch, and bought a few trinkets for girlfriends in England who have... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Who dares, loses?

Oh well... time to get the packing finished, and to think about getting on that plane on Monday. It no longer holds the urgency or appeal it did when I left in December. in fact, I'd almost rather not be going. I like being around my son. I like being in my house. I just don't like my husband being... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

If one argument can fold a relationship

... was it that strong at all? Was I so wrong to react when I felt controlled, vulnerable, afraid he would leave me? One argument doesn't destroy a good relationship. He decided it wasn't working, that's all. No sense of what committment actually means. For better or worse. What a fool I was. Or... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, September 8, 2008

And today's

Time to have that chat. I would like the kind man to give me more than the odd half hour here and there. Our future interactions may only be professional, but this man asked me to marry him. I deserve more. There was a finite period in which my marriage could have been repaired, with some intensive... Sign in to see full entry.

Yesterday's thoughts

From being fairly optimistic and motivated yesterday morning before I saw my counselor, I then sank into afternoon TV and lethargy. I feel sick every now and then, when I hear in my head the voice I have loved so much and see the kind face that even now smiles at me when I do happen to have contact... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Am I that easy to forget?

No matter what the feeling, there's a song for it... they just pop in and out of my head, and with the wonders of You Tube, I can depress myself at the touch of a button. I don't want to think there is a new woman in his life, but I suppose there could be. It doesn't make sense, otherwise. I won't... Sign in to see full entry.

About this Blog

I started this blog in 2006, round about the time my 28-year marriage was unravelling. It was difficult for all concerned, even for my ex who handled the situation about as badly as it’s possible to do. The damage is still emerging, when I least expect it. The children are adults and both now live with their father in Australia. After the divorce, the future initially looked bright. It still does, although there are a number of complications. I have a new relationship to nurture, sometimes thrown into confusion through my daughter’s negativity when she visits. I’m a member of the church choir, which is really important to me. I think I’m happy, apart from those moments of conflict and opposition that we can all do without. Time will tell. To quote William Shakespeare: O time, thou must untangle this, not I. It is too hard a knot for me t'untie

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