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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Back Down Under

And here we are... no money (well a little bit); staying with one friend at the moment, and being looked after, but also hearing her and being supportive (something we have always done); sleeping in till noon (hey, I'm jetlagged...); organising a rental car and beyond that, not much at all. I have... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Here's one for you Taps

And Can it be that I Should Gain? I love this old-fashioned Charles Wesley hymn... and if you look very carefully you will see a lovely green hat worthy of your DIL in that charming story. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQeIGbKqiw8 Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

How do I...

How do I go back to where we once were.. as strangers and then colleagues. I've booked a flight back for early next week and am full of trepidation and indecision. First of all the rest of my things can be sent home. I have enough left over from the cost of the flight, which was quite a bit less... Sign in to see full entry.

Now I'm the disappearing woman

I do wish people would stop telling me who I am... I have just got off the phone with my sister who has been quite aggressive, to say the least. Kept going on about where's my spirit. I ask, what spirit? Answer: the (family name) spirit. I reply that I don't want it, it's just bolshy (refraining... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Testing time

I feel very sick this evening. I'm still reeling from being told in an email that he is going to be moving in with the new woman. I will never understand this and so I am going to stop trying. God knows just what I have been through and I have to just trust that this is the best thing for me right... Sign in to see full entry.

Ordinary madness

Today it has been three days since I took any medication for the anxiety condition brought on by all this mess. I feel fine. Yesterday, I felt like just throwing in the towel - stop the PhD, stop everything. Just 'be.' Sometimes I think we think too much. I know he does. By keeping the mind in... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Is this love or insanity, and when will I learn?

It's called 'moving on'. He managed it pretty quickly. For me it feels like a living death and I have not, yet, moved on. If I thought my husband was cold and heartless -- until I met someone and tried to leave, when he became abusive as well -- then the once-kind man was probably worse. Worse... Sign in to see full entry.

Drat

Life quietly changed in my home country while I was away all those years. It's one thing to adapt to not having a car, and to rely on buses and expensive trains. It's quite all right to walk to work up a steep hill, and to continue doing that for six months. It is not all right when your husband... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

After the snow

Such a beautiful sunny morning again.. just cold. Don't be fooled like the birds, twittering cheerfully in bare branches, it isn't Spring, it just looks like it. The grass is so green again after its nap under a frozen blanket, and all the plant pots have a thin layer of ice over the soil. Not quite... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Just had to post it

This came about in responding to new writer scotcanada and commenting. By odd coincidence when I was in such a rush this morning it crossed my mind that it might be worth writing it up. How's that for synchronicity? Here's the original entry: http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/scotcanada/593379... Sign in to see full entry.

About this Blog

I started this blog in 2006, round about the time my 28-year marriage was unravelling. It was difficult for all concerned, even for my ex who handled the situation about as badly as it’s possible to do. The damage is still emerging, when I least expect it. The children are adults and both now live with their father in Australia. After the divorce, the future initially looked bright. It still does, although there are a number of complications. I have a new relationship to nurture, sometimes thrown into confusion through my daughter’s negativity when she visits. I’m a member of the church choir, which is really important to me. I think I’m happy, apart from those moments of conflict and opposition that we can all do without. Time will tell. To quote William Shakespeare: O time, thou must untangle this, not I. It is too hard a knot for me t'untie

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