"Brief Encounters"

I feel that one of the biggest tragedies in my past, is that once I had been re-united with my biological father-I regressed to a child-like dependant state. I was unable to 'parent' my children and only able to relate to them as my peers or playmates! The core of our work in session this past week... Sign in to see full entry.

I am very sensitive-open and vulnerable at this moment-with a deasperate wish to run! There are a great number of new memories around and a desire to visit my 'cell' mother's grave.You will hear in this poem how regressed I am and in retrospect this is the first time I have written or even thought... Sign in to see full entry.

As a result of eighteen months of therapy,it is now clear to me that the relationship I am in-with my dear friend Fred-was formed through my dependency needs and would not have been of my choosing if I had been psychologically healthy! However-within my therapy I have made it clear to Bruce that I... Sign in to see full entry.

For the first time in my life I understand how I have misused people to sustain me! Men in general. There was a specific School teacher and male bosses. I am beginning to recognise my guilt at just how much in the past I have misused my children's lives and this saddens me-greatly! TEARS TO MY... Sign in to see full entry.

We are heading for the May Day break.Bruce spoke about one of his favourite spots on the Norfolk coast.I have never gone off for a day on my own before and I was experiencing a fair bit of anger all round.I was convinced that I would explode if I stayed at home around my family.So I drove to the... Sign in to see full entry.

I have spent the past two or three weeks Soul searching and learning where I need boundaries and how to establish them.In the garden I have been doing some really heavy pruning.I have come to understand this statement. "I have tried to make sense of this world.It may be impossible because the world... Sign in to see full entry.

Right from the beginning of therapy I have needed to do a great deal of work on 'Containment'. I read a book called 'Women Who Run With The Wolves'.I was very impressed and have read the book several times since then and will read it many more times in the future! "My Pen"--"Can You Feel It" and "We... Sign in to see full entry.

In the past I have manipulated life but I am changing and now I have begun to simply 'let life happen'.I am now participating in life instead of watching others live it.Last week end I decided to visit my older sister.I felt that she must have been hurting the same as me.I also wanted to build some... Sign in to see full entry.

Bruce and I have been working in session with my feelings of guilt at my 'emotionally smothering' my youngest Son. In fact-even though I over-protected him I was actually the one who diagnosed his medical problem of a non-active Thyroid-against what the medics believed! So I did some good! TO MY... Sign in to see full entry.

So many times since I started psychotherapy and began understanding where I was coming from-I have wished that I could have been independent-like my Son. Freedom to live life-in the moment. However-it may still be possible. THE MOULD THEY FORMED FOR ME April 5th.1999 The 'mould' they formed for... Sign in to see full entry.