"Brief Encounters"

During the past couple of sessions, Bruce has challenged my trust in him, admittedly I have given him cause to. It felt that he was ' pissed off' and angry with me. The Session. November 11th. 1998. One thousand tiny feet and limbs-- were racing for the door-- all tangled up inside-the panic-- not... Sign in to see full entry.

In the relative 'safety' of my therapy session, I was able to speak-for the very first time-about the rape! I had 'blocked' it out. I thank God that this moment has been made possible for me. God's Special Messenger October 29t.1998. My friend-you hold my hand-but I don't feel the 'touch'. You... Sign in to see full entry.

It was not until after the death of my father,his cremation and his burial at sea by the Royal Navy, that I was able to consider other historic experiences in my life and to begin to work with them in therapy. This next poem was born out of my anger at being raped in 1959, when I was three months... Sign in to see full entry.

I wrote this poem following a session exploring my apparent 'controlling' behaviour. I didn't like what I was learning about myself and I was confused by my feelings. FEELINGS were still very new to me. I believe I felt a mixture of sadness, anger and loss. To My Biological Parents. September 2nd.... Sign in to see full entry.

Where my diary entries are concerned,I have been very 'selective'. No one wants to read-vulgar swear words and I can not show you the red streaks and 'explosions' splattered upon the pages depicting my anger! The important part is to show you that you may give yourself 'permission' to display your... Sign in to see full entry.

After 11 months of Psychotherapy-(November 1998)-, I made an important discovery. It was that I had never taken root in the outside world. The foster parents I grew up with did the best they could, but their best was not 'good enough'. I parented the 'child' in me, whilst un-consciously searching... Sign in to see full entry.

HOW DID I HEAL MY WOUNDS AND DISCOVER A HAPPIER ME? I have reached a happier and healthier way of being through the processess and dynamics of Psychotherapy,which I began at 10-00am.on the 13th January 1998. I have worked through unhealthy states of mind and body both of which were determined... Sign in to see full entry.

WHY DID I WRITE THIS BOOK? The reason I have written this book is to shed more light on the devastating effects of sexual abuse in childhood! My father sexually abused me physically and psychologically at different times in my childhood,over a fifteen year period. When I was 29 years old I was... Sign in to see full entry.