"Brief Encounters"

A letter I received from my eldest Son who was travelling around New Zealand, brought a welcome lightness at this moment in time and triggered off this poem. MY SON April 29th.1999 My Son-you travel pathways that I have never been- new lands and places-that I have never seen. In your narration-they... Sign in to see full entry.

I attended the funeral of a dear friend of mine.His children were devastated.One in particular appeared isolated from the group and I was automatically drawn towards comforting her.The desolation I believed I saw and felt in her, linked into my past and triggered off latent feelings of my own. THE... Sign in to see full entry.

Writing my thoughts and feelings down in poetry this way at the very least,helps me to acknowledge the TRUTH about my life instead of it remaining part of a FANTASY world which I used to live in and work with that truth and then-move on. From all the information I have recently gathered I learned... Sign in to see full entry.

We have been looking at my previous need for attachment.My 'need to be needed' and where that vital need-took me! As I look back I go cold with fear at what could have happened to all three of my children! These past couple of sessions have left me feeling absolutely CRAP! I MADE THEM TAKE MY HAND... Sign in to see full entry.

Owing to all of the memories around at the moment I am feeling quite vulnerable and regressed,which highlights my inability to contain all this shit and my desire to run away from it-instead of staying with it! MISSING YOU EASTER 1999 I miss you-'tho I have no reason-a panic is looming inside! No... Sign in to see full entry.

Since starting therapy with Bruce last year,our sessions have taken place in a pleasant room within the building of my GP's practice.I am now off the N.H.S. financial treatment and have begun to pay privately.Bruce has changed both the times and the venue for our sessions.Therapy will now take place... Sign in to see full entry.

I read this book on male and female sexual activities. Bruce invited me to discuss my reasons for buying the book-knowing as I di-that I could 'talk' to him about anything! That scares me a little and then I get mad at my parents for starting this whole ball rolling, as shown here in my statement! I... Sign in to see full entry.

These few weeks since christmas there is and has been a great deal of anger around for me to deal with.I believe it is due to the changes within me and recognition of the damage from the past.Once again the safest way for me to handle this-perhaps the most scariest of emotions-is to write about it... Sign in to see full entry.

The 'Mother' in this poem is the 'Adult' me and the 'child' is the child within me. MOTHER AND CHILD CONVERSE February 23rd.1999 Child-tell me of your feelings.What was it like for you? Were you happy-were you sad-please tell me-tell me do. A flat balloon-which once had been inflated-I've seen it... Sign in to see full entry.

This followed on from the previous one-written in my 'regressive' state. CRY BABY February 18th.1999 "Don't cry"-that's what my foster parents used to say to me- and if I did-and when they heard-they did not ask or speak a word- they simply stated-very clear-they'd give me something to cry for-... Sign in to see full entry.