http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/"A Beacon Of Light".This is the results of Psychotherapy from the Patient's perspective as opposed to that of the Professionalshourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/560945for all you're support-kindness and comments, all of which-enabled me to complete my personal challenge! To leave a smidgeon of 'something' that someone might find useful! God bless-'till we meet again-Love Chris. TO MY BROTHER-LES August 2004 Throughout my life-I stayed tightly closed- as a...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/560775This one today and the last tomorrow-(I hope). It was an extraordinary feeling to suddenly be aware that I no longer need a Diary or writing pads in order to communicate with an invisible-un-responsive 'other' person-or to hide stuff away. I have only rejected and denied my feelings by behaving...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/558270This poem is a result of my therapist and I addressing the issues of exclusion and containment. I am aware that there is almost no chronological order- in terms of my disclosure-running throughout this book and one might very well expect to see this particular poem much earlier in the book....http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/557993I have made several attempts to give up smoking none of which has been successful. On 13th.January my GP was very concerned about a particular nasty bout of Angina I was experiencing and called for an ambulance to take me to hospital where I spent a couple of days. It appears that a heart by-pass...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/557722This is a new feeling to recognise that-at last-I can refer to the Baby that I was forced to give up for Adoption in 1959-by his name-Phillip! This poem links in to "Blue Balloon"-"So Little Time"-"Secret Baby" and "Dear Baby"-poems I wrote in the earlier pages of "A Beacon Of Light". PHILLIP!...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/557428On December 5th.2002-I flew over to Sweden to visit my eldest Son and his partner. Their first Baby was born in October and I was anxious to be there and to bond with my new Granddaughter. What I had not realised was that un-consciously the birth of their baby-at this particular time in my...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/557227The plight of the little Soham girls and their parents and friends and in fact all those living in Soham-affected each and every one of us-right across our Nation and the wider world. These are my thoughts. THE SOHAM GIRLS September 27th.2002 What manner of creature-can misuse two children so?...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/557048The good thing about being in psychotherapy is that ultimately I am emotionally and psychologically healthy! However-it is extremely hard work trying to correct old habits-lay down new ground rules and at times the experience of psychotherapy makes me feel so sick and cringing and guilty. This...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/556420It feels important for me to explain once again to my friend Fred -the changes that have and are still occurring within myself and how it alters my view on everyone and everything around me. LETTER TO MY FRIEND FRED March 1st.2002 In the past I have been very 'childlike' in my behaviour. Not only...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Scramble5999/555958During today's session we reflected back once again on the traumatic and reactive life I have led up until now. For the first time I truly recognise this and acknowledge this understanding by writing to my 'inner child'. TO MY INNER CHILD February 21st.2002 Shish---listen little one-I'm talking...