"Brief Encounters"

We are leading up to a ten day break! You will see my immediate reaction from the words within this poem. I HAVE BEEN FINE July 11th. 2000 This is not 'sexual'-this unseen 'thing'-that binds me close to you-- and so what is it? No visual cord-no twine-no string-no magnets in my shoe-- and yet-I... Sign in to see full entry.

A young survivor of abuse-recently tried to take her own life with a cocktail of pills. The hospital was battling to save her life. This led to this next poem. THE SPENT YOUNG LIFE June 19th.2000 Struggling. Fighting--against all the pain--to survive. Two steps forward--one step back--that's life!... Sign in to see full entry.

I have reached a new understanding of myself and the child within-as this poem shows. MY INNER CHILD June 12th.2000 Each intake of breath she is here with me-no longer 'searching'-- 'aching'-'wanting'-for what could never be. Every single heart beat-she is by my side-we travel in union-- I am... Sign in to see full entry.

I know that my inner child is still very much around because of the tearfulness I am feeling. In session I was trying to recall where I "hid" as a child when I felt the need to? As I consciously recall-there was nowhere to hide! There was not a single place I could be alone-only in my head. This... Sign in to see full entry.

I continue to try to understand the changes that are occurring within me and these next two poems are the result. THURSDAY May 25th.2000 I've never understood the adult world-I allowed the inner child to take control-- then you stepped in and showed me how absurd-- how complicated I made life--on... Sign in to see full entry.

I am finding it a little difficult to understand what's happening to me-and within me.This 'growing up' stuff is quite scary....my 'inner child' has always been more in control than the adult me- for a majority of the time allowing the adult me-to hide behind the inner child. Now it feels like there... Sign in to see full entry.

We have been focussing on my "growing up". Leaving the past behind. Something I should have done a long,long time ago. However-for survival reasons-I didn't. As a child I recall members of my family speaking harshly to me:"Grow up Chris for goodness sake!" However, the way Bruce was suggesting that... Sign in to see full entry.

During yesterday's session we were looking at TRUST ---(boundaries) and RESPECT ---(fear). Out of this came the fact that I actually fear the act of knocking on a closed door! The feeling for me is that it is so very different from "being invited in" or being told/ordered in-on the spur of the... Sign in to see full entry.

two or three days as I have to go into hospital-tomorrow for an Angioplasty-see you soon-God Willing!) ---------------------------------------------------- During my session today-I spoke with Bruce about the week end and how it made me feel. One of my emotions was sadness for my Granddaughter... Sign in to see full entry.

My eldest Son came home for the week end and for a while-I had all three of my Sons around and we went out to the local village pubs.It was wonderful but a strange feeling having these three men escorting me around and my feeling is that I regressed a little. I believe that experience-influenced... Sign in to see full entry.