Saturday, May 10, 2008
"My Search For Mummy"------A Beacon Of Light-----continued-----------------
This one is of the same 'mood' as the previous poem. MY SEARCH FOR MUMMY March 2000 Child-stop searching for your 'mummy'-for she won't answer when you call-- she's dead and gone! When she was there-in your early days-she wasn't 'mothering' you in Spirit or in Soul. Lay the ghost-and move on. I hear...
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Friday, May 9, 2008
"Something Stirred"-------A Beacon Of Light-----continued------------------
There is a great deal of anxiety within me at the present time! I feel there are two of me. The inside me thinks-feels and behaves in one way. The outside me faces the world and behaves in a totally different way from that of my inside world.It feels like I am in the middle of my worst nightmare!...
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Thursday, May 8, 2008
"I Met The Baby Inside"-----A Beacon Of Light------continued---------------
As Bruce so often says-each time we 'go back'-we are doing so from a different angle and this time-I found the baby in me! I MET THE BABY INSIDE February 25th. 2000 Today I travelled far and deep inside again- raked amongst the ashes and the roots. I never really thought that I would find remains-...
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Wednesday, May 7, 2008
"My Therapist's Room"------A Beacon Of Light-----continued-----------------
Needless to say I could not have experienced any of this 'rewind' of my past life without my therapist--my 'significant other!' Also-he was about to 'move home'! MY THERAPIST'S ROOM February 11th. 2000 The 'Cradle' of freedom to safely explore-the pathways I've travelled upon. Space-set aside-where...
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Tuesday, May 6, 2008
"Little Blue Baby"---------A Beacon Of Light------continued----------------
Until now-I never grieved for the Baby I lost in 1974. I felt that it was God's punishment upon me-for all my wrong doings! LITTLE BLUE BABY January 31st.2000 Little Blue Baby-it's long overdue-my thoughts and my feelings so raw. I searched through my memories and came across you-yes you-little...
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Monday, May 5, 2008
"Back Through The Past"-----A Beacon Of Light----continued-----------------
I feel that it is vital-that some form of intervention and recovery work is established as soon as possible for children recognised as having disturbed backgrounds! Without ever being shown the appropriate way to behave for example-or the right pathway to take-the future is nothing but a huge maze...
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Sunday, May 4, 2008
"My Son's Assessment" and "What Have You Done?"----A Beacon Of Light contin
This is an extremely difficult transitional time for me.On the one hand I am trying to follow advice and guidance as to what is best for my youngest Son's welfare.On the other hand-or possibly because of this-I am breaking Bruce's boundaries-unintentionally.My emotions are absolutely everywhere.Part...
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Saturday, May 3, 2008
"Remembering The Seasons"------A Beacon Of Light------continued------------
So much has arisen in therapy during tis past three or four weeks.It was the eighth anniversary of my open heart surgery on the 15th.October 1999.It was also the anniversary of the start of ICAIR on the same day! Then I had to rush Fred into hospital with terrible stomach pains. Hence the next...
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Friday, May 2, 2008
"To My Foster Father-Pop"---A Beacon Of Light----continued-----------------
TO MY FOSTER FATHER-POP October 7th.1999 October 1942 until your death which was early 1963. I was one year and eight months old when I was placed in your care! Because of my redevelopment in therapy I can now acknowledge you as my father and shall refer to you as 'Pop' the same as 'Auntie' did-I...
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Saturday, April 26, 2008
"To My Foster Father"---------A Beacon Of Light-------continued------------
Looking back at my life as a child within the foster family-as I recall-the women around were the only ones who had a voice! Each of them was in control within their own family and-the wider family.All of them were very critical-controlling and judgemental.The males appeared to be totally...
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