Sunday, May 7, 2006
"Love-Busted and Body Slammed"
This started out a two -page heart-rant that I decided to present in two parts. But I keep adding thoughts…. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ I had called Mike’s wife The Ice Queen in my last e-mail to him and he said in his last phone call that she really wasn’t that cold, in her defense. He then relented and said, “Well, she’s cool compared to you……” She remains the Ice Queen to me until she lifts the no contact clause. That is how I knew, right then and there, that I’m still...
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Saturday, May 6, 2006
We Had Set A Date, May 23
So why did he so readily agree to go into counseling when she asked him to? Why did he choose the first wife, who did not give him the same giddiness I did. Was it just the return to sex, with her? Was the change too much of a sacrifice? She started to fill in the holes of their marriage. She was the mother of his children. He asked me for a commitment September 5th. He said he was fooling himself thinking my marital bed was as barren as his. But he knew I still had a sexually active marriage....
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Friday, May 5, 2006
"What's Love Got to Do With It?"
Please forgive me while I hash this out one more time. It’s part of my healing, to write it out. It’s a cleansing tool and a reaffirmation to leave my lover alone. I have to be convinced that we did the right thing. We did, we did. Mike had resigned himself to having no sex again for the rest of his life. I just read that in one of his old e-mails from September. Then all of a sudden, after five years of refusing him sex except to submit twice on two anniversaries, then nothing at all for three...
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Thursday, May 4, 2006
Is Love an Addiction?
If lately you’ve noticed I’ve NOT been blogging as much as I usually have, please know that there is this “dying old liberal feminist hippie hillbilly” who IS hanging in there. I’ve been struggling with a minor LOVE setback. I can still pray and I know that the Goddess and God will liberate me of fear. I just wish I would get my heart and mind in sync. I am trying to “treat” my affair of last year as if it had been an addiction. I’ve gone so far as to study the 12-step program and see where my...
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Thursday, April 27, 2006
TWENTY BUCKS
On their wedding night, the young bride approached her new husband and asked for $20.00 for their first lovemaking encounter. In his highly aroused state, her husband readily agreed. This scenario was repeated each time they made love, for more than 30 years, with him thinking that it was a cute way for her to afford new clothes and other incidentals that she needed. Arriving home around noon one day, she was surprised to find her husband in a very drunken state. During the next few minutes, he...
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
"Mawaige - That Blessed Event"
What an interesting past two days I’ve enjoyed here in Blogitville. The battle of the sexes or something like that has been underfoot and aflame. I started to post this response on my comments page but it outgrew that venue. I hope it will be my last essay on this particular subject for a while. What a better place to air boy/girl differences than the Relationship site. Remember "Fried Green Tomatoes?" Towanda! Dear TTP- I appreciated the tone of your last response much better than your previous...
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Just Another Huge Whore, and an Idiot, Too
This all got started by fellow blogger, Qween, when aspersions were cast her way. I just couldn't keep the woman in me from responding. The ass-persions have just kept on so I am posting in my Relationship Blog just what the "nice girl" Cee really thinks, especially when called a huge whore. Boy, that's a new one; my reputation hasn't taken such a blow since being spotted making out in the back seat, sitting up, with Gary Crane in 8th grade! I guess this was a grown-up name-call. Oh yeah, I was...
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Truth
All right, I confess. I am not with child. No love baby is on the way. OMG! The thought of it really being true makes me feel a little crazy. The picture I posted yesterday was the “real me” and a good picture to provide me some motivation to lose weight. The picture, above, was also taken this morning by my husband, Jay. I just finished planting pansies in his flower box and he got a picture of me wearing the same top but with my jeans, which holds me in better than the skirt. (Never thought of...
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Monday, April 17, 2006
Truth or Dare?
Weight Watchers or the Delivery Room? Where will I be in 3 months? As I appeared in my Easter impromptu outfit (I was waiting on my jeans in the dryer), my husband said, “Honey, I hate to tell you this, but that outfit makes you look about 6 months along.” I replied sarcastically, “Well maybe that’s the problem – I AM!” He looked up at me, with a look I couldn't quite interpret. I took it a little further. “I wasn’t sure how to tell you this because everyone else missed it until the colonoscopy....
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Friday, April 14, 2006
A Love Letter- (from my husband)
Today I was cleaning out an old stack of papers. I found an e-mail that my husband, Jay, had written to me when I was in Boston last November, soon after we had recomitted to our marriage. I'd printed it off while in Boston (luckily) because it doesn't show up on either of our "saved files." It made me wonder why on earth I ever GET in a funk, like yesterday. Jay wrote: Whew, I really feel when I write, so much comes out. I rid those fears - gives me love. Like your lips (all of them) I want to...
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