Jeff's Journal

Going to Delaware to see Mom this weekend. Gonna go Friday night, that way I'll have two nights there. Easier that way. Lisa's going with me. After this summer she probably won't be going anymore. I can't imagine dating both her and Anita for very long. Lisa's great, but Anita's special. Sign in to see full entry.

I'm worn out. It's been like this everyday at the end of the day lately. Maybe I'm working too hard. Dinner with St John's singles last night was fun, but basically I'm killing time untlil I start dating Anita. They have a dance Friday which I'll probably go to. Anita's going to Hershey this... Sign in to see full entry.

Filed for an hour and a half and my desk doesn't look a bit neater. Sheesh I'm a little upset about that screw up but I know it won't happen again. Going to Zapata's with St Johns singles tonight. Once things get going with Anita, I'll probably stop going to singles groups, but for now... Sign in to see full entry.

I've finally reached the point where I know it's not the end of the world if Anita doesn't go out with me. A big dissappointment, but not the end of the world. Ten minutes after I had that revelation, I looked at my cell phone and found out she had called yesterday. She didn't leave a message. It's... Sign in to see full entry.

Anita is messing things up for me. I've been having a lot of fun these last few years dating different women, being footloose and fancy free and just having a good old time. Then I had to go fall in love with Anita. We're going to end up in a serious relationship and there go all the other women,... Sign in to see full entry.

A bit tired on a Saturday. My body doesn't realize it can sleep later on Saturdays, it wakes up early as though it has to go to work. Got an idea on the Anita situation. I sent her an email suggesting that we make tentative plans to go out but be ready to cancel them if needed. I'll probably see her... Sign in to see full entry.

I messed up that case pretty badly, but Dorne was nice about correcting me. She's the most competent and professional manager I've ever worked with. Looks like I won't be seeing Anita this weekend. She said she would try to call but I'm not holding my breath. I'm glad to hear she's going out with a... Sign in to see full entry.

Anita says she's going to let me know about going out this weekend. I have a feeling it's not about her schedule, I think she's nervous about the idea of going out with me. I'm guessing maybe she hasn't dated for a while and she's a little jumpy about getting back into it. If that's the case, it... Sign in to see full entry.

Mr Salako spent some more time hanging around Anita's office but I was much less jealous today. I guess I finally convinced myself that it was stupid to be jealous. I told myself that yesterday but I didn't believe me. Sheesh three years ago I was lying in a hospital bed trying to decide whether to... Sign in to see full entry.

I can't believe how jealous I felt when i saw Mr Salako talking with Anita today. It was completely irrational. On the one hand it reminded me how crazy I am about Anita. But on the other hand, it made me feel like I was insecure. Oh well I guess that's a big part of life, dealing with our emotions... Sign in to see full entry.