Jeff's Journal

Well this is a new one. The depression hits me for one day and I"m almost well again. I think knowing that I'm probably going to retire has reduced the stress. Sign in to see full entry.

I keep reminding myself that there are other fish in the sea besides Anita. None of them is as tasty as Anita, but some are still pretty good. Cindy M is a good example. Being as how she was married the first ten years I knew, it's sort of hard to see her as single now. I have a feeling she has a... Sign in to see full entry.

November 1 That's the day I retire. Maybe They have to approve me first. Nobody seems to think that will be a problem. As Ms. Conway said they'll be glad to get rid of my salary. After having mixed feelings at first, now I'm darn excited. I was my dream to retire young. Not under these circumstances... Sign in to see full entry.

Actually got some work done today. I can be pretty productive when I'm well. Dr Zhang may be filling out forms even as I write. That would be cool. I have to be patient though, I'll drive myself crezy if I'm not. Retirement and Anita. Two things I have to be patient about. Sign in to see full entry.

Dr Zhang didn't have time to fill out the forms last night so now I have to wait for them to call me. I'm now looking forward to retiring after being ambivilent about it at first. Strange as it may sound, I'm sort of hoping to get sick between now and the time I retire because it would knock a week... Sign in to see full entry.

We're underway. Gave some paperwork to Ms Kennedy today, she gave me some to fill out and take back and some for Dr Zhang to fill out. I happen to see Dr Zhang tonight. Is that a stroke of luck or what? If Dr Zhang has to to fill out the papers tonight, I can bring them back to Ms Kennedy tomorrow... Sign in to see full entry.

So I go to see Ms Kennedy tomorrow to pick up my disability application. Uncle Berkley says I should apply to social security first, then get a lawyer if I'm turned down. (He's a lawyer). I'm excited about all the free time I'm going to have, although if things continue the way they have been, I'll... Sign in to see full entry.

Getting more comfortable with the idea of retiring on disability. The free time will be wonderful! Also getting more comfy with the Anita situation. I believe we will go out together and go on to have a fabulous relationship. But if we don't, well it would be disappointing but it wouldn't ruin my... Sign in to see full entry.

Well I'm about 90 percent sure I'm going to retire on disability. Everyone I've talked to seems to think it's the best option for me. That helps a lot because I think I'm too close to the situation and I need outside input Sign in to see full entry.

An okay day. Reminded me of the Harborview days, ten times the things to do that I can do. That's temporary though, or at least it will be if I stay healthy. Healthy or not though all I can do is the best I can. Got a nice email from Aunt Fran. She's my favorite family member and she's not even a... Sign in to see full entry.