Jeff's Journal

Been doing a lot of masturbating lately. It's a good thing. I'm not ejaculating, I guess that's a side effect of my medicine but in a way it's a good thing. It enables me to masturbate for a longer period of time and more often. I'm guessing that if I was actually have sex I would be ejaculating.... Sign in to see full entry.

I've figured something out. I figured out by thinking about how frustrated I am with Anita not calling, I made myself more frustrated. Not only that complaining about my frustration kept Anita from calling. (I'm into this metaphysical stuff you know.) Those Abraham tapes are sinking in Spent the... Sign in to see full entry.

Stuggled through the day a bit but I made it. It seems like when I have trouble sleeping in affects me for two days. Getting frustrated with the Anita situation. Now she doesn't have much time to talk to me at work or on the phone. It will get better but I'm feeling frustrated right now. I think I'm... Sign in to see full entry.

Got through the day easier than I thought. After I got up at least 20 times to pee last night after drinking that big glass of milk I didn't think I'd have much energy. Started to doze off a coupla times but overall I held up well. I'm concerned about Anita. She's doing two jobs and I think it's... Sign in to see full entry.

It was 23 years ago today that my cousin Larry committed suicide. On his father's birthday. Which some years is also fathers day. We assume that's not a coincidence. Larry and I were best buds as kids. Only a year apart in age, we hung out together almost anytime we were not in school. We drifted... Sign in to see full entry.

Pretty good day today though I'm tired. Got some work done though, feeling a little bit more self confident about work A lot depends on how I feel. I'll try the gym again tonight. Didn't make it last night, just wasn't up to it. It looks like my going out with Anita is on the back burner. She's got... Sign in to see full entry.

A pretty good day although kind of weird. Felt lousy in the morning then about noon started to feel better. No reason for it that I can see. Planning to go the the gym this evening. If I make it, it will be the first time in months. Abraham says you don't need exercise to be healthy but I haven't... Sign in to see full entry.

Feeling pretty good today. My mind wandered at work like it usually does. Made my lunch today which I haven't done in months so I figure that's a good sign. Gotta get back to doing stuff in the evenings. Used to be I was out most every night. Sign in to see full entry.

I saw a commercial for an anti-depressent medication and them listed the inability to concentrate as one of the symptoms of depression. I had forgotten that. Now I know why my mind wanders so much when I'm trying to work or whatever. I told my mind that it's too little to wander off by itself. Poor... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm tired. Woke up too early couldn't get back to sleep. Spent the afternoon with Lisa, had a good time. With all the hullabaloo about Anita I forgot how much fun Lisa can be. Still though if I had to pick one it would be Anita hands down Sign in to see full entry.