Jeff's Journal

I'm about a 28 today on a scale of 100. I never seem to vary much. The effexor didn't do much good to begin with so it doesn't seem like increasing the dosage would help, but then I'm not a psychiatrist--I don't even play one on TV. Called Cr and Ch from the Sunday Drada group last night. Trying to... Sign in to see full entry.

At about a 30 on that 1-100 scale now. Last time I was above 45 they were still playing baseball. Started to call Debbie today, just to say hi, but I had her number wrong. Probably do it later in the week. At this point I don't want to wait for her to call, been waiting a week already. Talked to... Sign in to see full entry.

Don't know what to think about Debbie at this point. We didn't get a chance to talk by ourselves this morning but she did give me a couple of nice smiles during the meeting, which would seem to indicate she's interested. But then the fact that she hasn't called makes me think she's not interested.... Sign in to see full entry.

I really want to give myself a pat on the back. I feel lousy today another 2 on a scale of ten. Most people if they felt like I do would have spent the day in bed, but here I am in the library blogging away. The people who keep telling me to push myself need to know that I am pushing myself. Still... Sign in to see full entry.

Well I've been saying I've been at 2 on a scale of ten, so today must be a 1. Only a 1 I think would be Can't get out of bed. So maybe today was a 1.5 could barely get out of bed. Maybe I need to use a 1-100 scale instead of 1-10. I think the cold weather affected me today. Since I was pretty much... Sign in to see full entry.

Well I'm at about a 2 again today. At least I'm consistent. Had breakfast with Melanie. That was nice. Haven't mentioned Debbie to her yet. No sense mentioning it until/unless something happens. Found out what was wrong with my answering machine. I had accidently turned it off. Oh boy. Took me three... Sign in to see full entry.

Jeff's Journal has now surpassed 1,000 clicks. Thank you!!! Feeling about a two right now after reaching about a five this morning. Up and down. Actually more like down and further down. I think I'm going to reduce the Wellbrutin. I think it's causing me to become constipated. I did finally manage a... Sign in to see full entry.

I continue to drift between about a two and a five on the scale of ten about a 3 right now. Haven't heard back from Debbie and now my answering machine is malfunctioning. It's not working right either. But if she does call I'll see her on the caller ID and call her back. Unless she has caller ID... Sign in to see full entry.

I did it. I left a message on Debbie's answering machine asking her out. Don't know what would have happened if she'd answered. I was all ready to say sorry wrong number. That of course would have been silly. I've gotten better but it's still harder than it should be for me to ask women out. This is... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel crappy as usual today. At least I'm consistent. I feel consistently crappy. Despite feeling lousy, I enjoyed the DA meeting today. Teriffic people there. I'm supposed to maybe be going out with Melanie tonight, if we both feel up to it. That's a pretty big if, we've both been feeling lousy... Sign in to see full entry.