Jeff's Journal

I'm about a 28 out of 100 right now. I've been running around all morning like I'm not sick, that may catch up to me later. Wrote some pretty good new stuff last night, but then I''ve written a lot of good stuff that's never sold. Only saw a few minutes of the Opening Ceremonies last night because I... Sign in to see full entry.

The beat goes on not much better today maybe a 27. Still managed to get some greeting card stuff done yesterday. If my math is right I now have 184 ideas out to three different companies. Didn't leave the aparment til 11:30 this morning. Moving very slowly. Did have three bowls of cereal though... Sign in to see full entry.

I actually feel a little worse today about 17 on the scale of 100. It reminds of the baseball player--forget who it was--who was in a terrible slump and saw his batting average drop belown.100. He said "I'm trying to get down to zero and start the season over" I'm thinking maybe I should go down to... Sign in to see full entry.

Not good at all today, about a 19 on the scale of 100. The effexor isn't doing a darn bit of good. I guess she'll probably try me on something else when I see her on the 16th. I'm beginning to think I may have to retire on disability. Got paid today, $16 more than usual. Guess it was our cost of... Sign in to see full entry.

Pretty good session with the therapist today. He still keeps insisting writing greeting cards could only be a supplement to my income, but I'll just ignore that. Feeling pretty good right now, relatively speaking about a 42 on that scale of 100. That's because I just took a nap in the car. Drada... Sign in to see full entry.

Haven't written in Jeff's Journal for a few days because I've been concentrating on greeting cards. Got a bunch out, now it's hurry up and wait. Had a real interesting conversation with Jenna at church yesterday. She asked me if I really wanted to get well and go back to work. I said there was part... Sign in to see full entry.

'bout a 40 on that scale of 100 today. I don't really have much perspective though, because I've forgotten what it's like to feel good. I went back to two Wellbrutin today per Dr Ashai's instructions. Pooped this morning so so far it hasn't hurt. Got an email from Patty T today. It was good to hear... Sign in to see full entry.

About a 41 right now on the 1-100 scale although I was about a 20 earlier in the day. Called Debbie this afternoon but she was in the middle of something so she couldn't talk. I'll see her Saturday anyway. Melanie has decided she is willing to continue dating me. Not quite clear what was making her... Sign in to see full entry.

About a 27 on the scale of 100. Always between about 25 and 45. Called Debbie this morning and got her on the phone. We had a great chat, cut short because she got another call. I didn''t ask her out again because I'm confused about what to do since she never responded either way to the first... Sign in to see full entry.

About a 42 on the scale of 100 right now, this morning I was about a 23. I go from really bad to almost okay to back again. Spent some time with Melanie today which was nice. We're not going to go walking down the ailse together or anything but she is very nice company. Drada meeting tonight Yaaaay.... Sign in to see full entry.