Jeff's Journal

I think I'm about over the illness but I had trouble getting to sleep last night so maybe not. Going to try to go to the dance tonight if I'm up to it and if I can get tickets. Maybe GiGi will be there. Feeling a little better about my finances, probably because I'm feeling a little better... Sign in to see full entry.

So now both my therapist and my medical doctor think I may have a physical illness rather than depression. Maybe I should consult a fortune teller. Seems to me these folks are being paid an awful lot of money just to guess. If I make it back tomorrow which is questionable, I'll lose about three days... Sign in to see full entry.

So now my therapist thinks I may not have depression but something else. We both know I have anxiety. So now I get to add Clonopin to the 99 other medications I'm already taking (I'm exaggerating a mite, it's really just four) At least my episodes are getting further apart. I had really thought they... Sign in to see full entry.

That Laughter workshop is great. Heather is simply a fabulous person. Interesting that she's so outgoing and bubbly and her husband Bob is so quiet. Opposites attract I guess. Looking forward to the dance on Friday. Gloie says she's coming. I keep hoping Vivian is there but if she's not there will... Sign in to see full entry.

That training was a nice break from the routine. I hope Jackie isn't upset that I didn't finish the report. Not much I could do about it. I was looking at the ketchup stain on my white shirt and thinking "So What" Mom would have freaked. I just have to make it clear to her that I don't value... Sign in to see full entry.

I think I'm going to ask Ms White about making up time. I've hesitated in the past because I was afraid working the extra time would just make me sick again, but at this point, I think it's worth a shot. See Dr Shepard-Lewis my "regular" doctor later. (I guess my other doctors are constipated). I... Sign in to see full entry.

Came up with a good idea. I think maybe if I spend more time filing, that may reduce the stress and I'll miss less time from work. Of course if I had a real job, there would be clerical people to do that. There are clerical people but not enough. Anyway we I first came back after getting out of the... Sign in to see full entry.

Slept better last night but I'm still tired. Going to use a little reverse psychology and give myself permission to take tomorrow off. That way I'll be more relaxed and I'll have a better chance of making it in tomorrow. I was supposed to help Melanie pack tonight but I don't think I'm going to make... Sign in to see full entry.

I was about to take off but I think it's important for me to write a journal entry every day I can Couldn't sleep last night so I had to call in again this morning. Very frustrating. Anyway after sleeping most of the morning I came here to the library, got some reading done and got some cards... Sign in to see full entry.

Sounds like Dr. Shells second opinion is pretty much the same as Dr Ashai's first opinion, although Dr Shell did suggest a couple of different medications. Wants me to go to the cardiologist. Not much chance of that. For one thing the rare mild chest pains I have are clearly related to anxiety, not... Sign in to see full entry.