Jeff's Journal

The depression has clobbered me again. Flat on my back in bed for two days with no sign of improvement. Going to try to go to work tomorrow, in spite of it all. Of course that's what I said about today. No response to my email to Anita even though I sent it on Satruday. She must not check her email... Sign in to see full entry.

Well I'm feeling pretty lousy right now. I was kinda sorta okay for most of the day but I faded at the end. Anita was back It was great to see her again. We haven't arranged out date yet but I'm in no hurry. Just the anticipation is fun. Well I'm going to try my new thing of having bagels for... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel lousy. Woke up too early, couldn't get back to sleep. Had an okay time at the dance last night but not as good as I normally would. That tells me how I"m doing. I don't always know how I feel until I try to do something, then I get a clue Lisa was very supportive of my plans to go out with... Sign in to see full entry.

Stuggled through the day. Felt okay for awhile, then not so good for awhile. At least it's Friday. I'll see Lisa Sunday and maybe Melanie Saturday. Going to a dance tonight. I hope I'll feel well enough to enjoy it. Not going to pay bills today because I'm a bit low on cash. I'll deposit Gary's rent... Sign in to see full entry.

Finally! A decision! Anita emailed me and said was interested in going out with me. I pretty much knew that but I was a nervous wreck waiting for a response. I don't know why I cared so much since I'm already dating Lisa. I guess I must really really like Anita. Average day at work. Got tired before... Sign in to see full entry.

Surprisingly still no response from Anita. I guess she's concerned about her medical tests. Understandable. Some of my fellow bloggers were concerned that I was too wrapped up in this Anita thing. Well I'm not. I exaggerated my post to make it more interesting. I'll be one percent happier if she... Sign in to see full entry.

That was anti-climatic. I waited all day to check my email to see what Anita would say and she didn't email me. Now the paranoid part of me says that Anita didn't want to turn me down by email. But that makes no sense. It would be easier for her to turm me down by email than in person or over the... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel crappy. Came in late to get some extra rest. It helped some. Anita said she didn't check her email over the weekend. So she'll check it tonight and about this time tomorrow, I'll either be happy or heartbroken. Stay tuned. Sign in to see full entry.

The response I expected was for her to give me her email and phone # she did that but she also gave me a big fat hug. So I emailed right away and asked her out to dinner. My hands were sweating all over the keyboard, just as if I had called her on the phone. Interesting that I'm so into Anita even... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm feeling better today, I guess that increase in the prozac has fully kicked in. My head feels a little fuzzy but still much better overall. I'm feeling overworked which hasn't happened much since I've been transferred. So I stayed an extra 20 minutes to get a little more work done and to make up... Sign in to see full entry.