Jeff's Journal

I'm exhausted. By the time I get home from work I'm too tired to do anything else. Somethings got to give. Work, Home, Work Home is no way to live. I'm supposed to have dinner with Melanie tonight. I think I'm make it but I might be too tired to have a good time. Anita is supposed to call me tonight... Sign in to see full entry.

Pretty good day at work. Ms Hamlin is concerned about my productivity but I did pretty well today. Going to call Anita and see if I can pin her down for a date this weekend. It will be about time we've been talking about it so long 'bout a month and a half. Sign in to see full entry.

With the death of her sister and everything else she has to deal with Anita still found the time to buy me a birthday card and gift. Do I have good taste in women or what? See my therapist this evening. With the Abraham work I'm doing, I may not even need therapy. But I don't feel ready to stop yet.... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm fifty today. Whoop de do. I don't feel fifty but then again I don't know what fifty is supposed to feel like. I feel pretty good though. I may die tomorrow, I may live another 50 years. I intend to make the best of the time I have left no matter how long or short it is Sign in to see full entry.

Feel pretty good today, the last day of my forties. I was just thinking that I think Anita has something to with it. It was about three weeks ago the last time I was sick and that was about the time Anita and I started talking more and having deeper conversations Birthday dinner with Lisa tonight.... Sign in to see full entry.

Rough day Anita's sister passed away. I was almost as upset as she was and I didn't even know she had a sister. If there was any doubt that I care deeply about Anita, I think I can put it to rest. Sign in to see full entry.

Things are looking up. I'm starting to feel better. See Dr. Zhang this evening, she may be able to tweak the medicine so that I feel even better I'm concerned about Anita. She wasn't at work today so she may be sick. I'll call her later. Sign in to see full entry.

I'm tiiiiired. Didn't sleep well last night, spent have the day dozing at my desk. Called Anita last night but she didn't get the message til this morning, Lent her "Ask and it is Given, it will be interesting to see what she thinks of it. I think I'll just start writing her notes and leaving them... Sign in to see full entry.

Bit of a rough day, didn't feel well all day. See Dr Zhang Tuesday, maybe she can tweak the medicine. Brief chat wih Anita today. I think I'll call her tonight. Gotta figure out when we can get together, we've been talking about it for a month. I turn 50 one week from today. I've been saying I'm 50... Sign in to see full entry.

My offer to help Anita move furniture was too late. Oh well would have been nice. My stomach's growling which is a good thing. Means I'm not overeating. Made a heck of a hole in the wall when I fell the other day when I fell on the way to the bathroom. Haven't been able to get ahold of maintenace to... Sign in to see full entry.