My life

Just watched all 6 hours of a thing about the holographic universe and one guys opinion on it. I have to agree that there is a compelling case for the fact that maybe the world is presented like this, and maybe it is all projected inside our heads from outside and maybe it does not even exist outside that. But there are things about it I fundamentally disagree. The most obvious is the one about Free Will. We can change our stories so much that is difficult to argue that the pattern of our life... Sign in to see full entry.

Those of you who believe, or want to give some time, the idea of the supernatural, will know what I mean when I start on this topic. Other, will scoff. But I can live with it. In order to make anything work with magic, or whatever you want to call it, you have to stay loose. Not just comfortable, but in such a deep state of relaxation, that your brain alpha rhythms actually change. In this state you can alter your brain patters. In the old days we called this Brain Washing, and were very... Sign in to see full entry.

Have you ever had your beloved computer die a death on you? I’ve had it happen all too often, and have learnt a hard lesson. Fortunately I have all written work backed up on CDs. And the really important stuff is on a hard drive, so I can just plug it in and go! But I’ve started to rely on stuff like OneNote, as I love the way it can file loads of things and still let me get at them. Instead of making me trawl through files which I’m not even sure about. Also I have an online back-up system from... Sign in to see full entry.

Out of curiosity I looked up my old factory. One thing struck me, and that was how high my piece ranked on google! I wonder if anyone from the old days looked at it? More alarming was the fact that a little video I made of the old site came up as the only video link. Still, I don’t see or hear from anyone from those days, nor do I want to, as we all fell out badly. With me walking out. But it all fits in with my idea of re-creating old memories. If you suffered from altzimers or wanted to travel... Sign in to see full entry.

Sometimes on F-book I look up people I once knew. I don’t keep any contacts with friends or family, as I don’t want them pocking their noses into my affairs. But I can’t help wondering what they are all doing. I found an old ex-girlfriend of mine that married someone who used to drink in our local pub, and wondered what they were all doing now. The truth is-NOT MUCH. However, I am obsessed with revisiting the past, and trying to piece it together in the way I want it to be, and not the way it... Sign in to see full entry.

I have not made any entries of late, because I’ve gone down with a head cold. It might be the virus that’s going round, but I hope not, as I’ve had to flue jab and even I could not beat it. Anyway, I’ve not been in the mood, and have touched little of anything that matters. Of course I had to still go to work, but I got through it. I haven’t done anything towards the lottery, as I know you must not dabble in the black arts, if you are under the weather. For one, it just comes out as rubbish, but... Sign in to see full entry.

9,11,39, 42 and 46 If I had played these numbers with my usual ones, I would have landed 5 numbers on the HK lottery. For a stake of one penny a line (about £1.5 total) I could have landed £1,500. I’m sure I don’t have to stress how worrying this is. But If I had kept my nerve I would have cracked it. Like many, I hesitate when it comes to putting one a large spread, over so many lotteries. Better to find them in a steady but modest spread? Maybe. But it really grates when I see a big miss like... Sign in to see full entry.

I wanted to write at least something for Christmas day. Work has been so intense that I have not felt like writing anything. Pity really as it’s my only real therapy, and even though it sounds self-indulgent and morbid, I feel that getting my feelings down is the only way I can come to terms with anything. I’ve tried not to beat myself up for not winning even a small amount, as late, but my heart has not been in it, so maybe it’s for the best. I’ve been watching a lot of self-help stuff about... Sign in to see full entry.

After watching Dennis Potters’: the Singing Detective, it’s given me a hunger for writing again. Not just filling in the pages of a blog like this, but to get the imagination going. His story was partly about reopening the wounds of his childhood, and trying to work out why his present life was so mixed up. The other part was about the human imagination and how our flights of fancy can lift us to new heights. For many writers this is the only way of escaping a boring drudge of existence. You are... Sign in to see full entry.

Well, 2 weeks to go for Christmas, and the clock is ticking down. Nothing much going on, but that doesn’t make a very interesting entry if I just moan on. The lottery dowsing isn’t going too well. If I held my nerve I could have landed 3 several times. But of course I didn’t. But the system of dowsing works well enough, I just can’t find the perfect time to do it. It seems I work better under pressure than anything else. If I’m really relaxed and happy on my day off, the spirit doesn’t seem to... Sign in to see full entry.