My life

Trip to the dentist today to replace the filling which I pulled out through flossing! Can you believe such a dumb thing? There it was, sitting in the basin before me. Anyway, a very kind man replaced it and only charged me £27.40. I was lucky. Sign in to see full entry.

There are just too many cars in the world. I ran a neighbour to a hospital appointment today, and I was struck by the fact that we are being swamped by cars. Not trucks and vans, HGVs or any other work vehicles, just cars. Each household has to have two cars just to live. No car, no job. There is nowhere to park, and the roads around here haven't changed much since the war. So we are just going under with cars. You dare not use the word: BUS anymore, and the companies could not organise... Sign in to see full entry.

Thank God, the rains have returned. Horrible if you are on holiday, but wonderful for the gardens and the fields. The harvest is coming to an end around here, so they won't have lost much, and they need a certain amount of moisture in the crop to get the best price anyway. With all they new houses going up around the village, they will need a new water source soon. Everyone has to come off the same one we have been using for 70 years. The village is situated in a small valley with natural... Sign in to see full entry.

Just a quick note to keep the account open, but the truth is that nothing much has changed for us here. I'm still caring for my Mother, and looking after the other big house in the village. Gardening and trying to make a little money online. Little change, but to be honest, I like it that way. Sign in to see full entry.

Things change very little around here. To some extent, I'm more than happy with that, but I fear change and what it can bring. The village seems so content to just sit back and let things happen, but when the changes come, we are overwhelmed by them. The big house I look after in the village is empty now. Its owner is in a care home, and he is not expected to return. At 94, he can't live there as it's not made for disabled living. Dating back to the 15th century, things have not changed there... Sign in to see full entry.

There is a website I write for where I have submitted my novels and short stories. No, I'm not trying to get you all to read them, but I feel I want someone to know how I feel about them and the audience figures they get. If the counters are correct, the most popular mounts up to about 2400 hits. Now I work on a one per cent hit rate. So in other words, we can take off the ones generated by the AI's and the general bots crawling the web pages. Plus, the people who fell there by accident, and... Sign in to see full entry.

Now and again, I look back on the nonsense I call my diaries and wonder where it all went wrong. What was I trying to say back then? And what would I do differently? If I could go back and tell my younger self one thing, it would be: "Don't drink!" That would have saved me a lot of trouble, but the truth is that I would have just said: "Don't worry, you'll make it anyway." Those old notebook diaries are full of anxiety about not getting anywhere and not doing enough. I wish I could go back and... Sign in to see full entry.

Do you ever have those trigger points where you see something really cruel and horrible, and you just want to lash out? I get triggered very easily the older I get. I see a world of dark mean mean-spirited people and I feel the only way to hit back, is to go down to their level. Obviously, this is wrong and I can talk myself out of it. But it does not help that we live in this world where we are bombarded by negative things. I try not to get caught in a spiral of negative things, but the... Sign in to see full entry.

We are doing Ok. Mother can walk up the stairs now, and needs little help from me. She gets upset that there are so many things she still cannot do, but she is doing really well. I took on her old job and became the cleaner for the big house in the village, which Mother once did. It was an easy job, and there was little to do, and it looked like life would go on for some time. However, life is something which happens, whilst you are busy making other plans. The old guy who lived there had a bad... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel guilty about making an entry as very little has happened to Mum and I in the past month. We have not faced any real hurdles, but maybe that's a good thing? We solved all the problems of the social services and the money. We could have carried on with them for free, but Mother found them a chore and asked them to stop coming. Our problems can be sorted out between us, and we can carry on anyway. the money is coming in nicely and the stock market has been very good to us. I make a modest... Sign in to see full entry.