A Tree Grows in Brooklyn

Now I have two! It's crazy... So I got an e-mail back from MN (aka the Hot Editor) and now he says he wants to meet!Aaaah! He suggested drinks or coffee, plus a well-lighted, public place, which I appreciate. I think he'd been getting my hints to him that I wanted to meet him (as in, "my Myspace photo is a lot different from what I look like in real life;" "in real life I'm actually quite shy"). And CS, my classmate, is still planning on coming into the city to visit. To use a very juvenile... Sign in to see full entry.

So I've been talking online to my old classmate, still. I'll call him by his first initial, C--same name as my ex. He's in Wisconsin, but he says that as soon as he gets back from his trip that he wants to come ot New York to hang out. Funny thing is, he completely remembers every detail from our conversation on Friday night (amazingly, I managed, under the influence, to basically give him my whole life story). C is a very cute guy and he makes me laugh--though there's a lot we don't have in... Sign in to see full entry.

I think yesterday's episode was just that: an episode. I went back to work today and I spent part of the day cleaning and cataloguing. You'll never believe the following story. The office I work in used to actually be an apartment, and it still has some of the features that apartments have. There's a back, main room that I guess used to be the master bedroom, with a kitchen off the side of it. The agency has so much stuff that they have nowhere to put it; so it often ends up in random places.... Sign in to see full entry.

...for what seemed like ne reason at all. I kept thinking of all the things I needed to do, and it all seemed overwhelming. It was all mundane stuff, too (cleaning, laundry, setting up appointments), so I don't know why it all sent me into a tailspin the way it did. And then I got really, really depressed, for no reason, either. Why do I behave the way I do? I mean, not like there are answers, but it would be nice to have some all the same. It's strange, because all the panic attacks I normally... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm absolutely exhausted, but I wanted to share something with you that was a total wake-up call. Hot Editor says he's the kind of guy who "wants to settle down." Yikes! Do I want that kind of thing? I guess, in a way, I do... and I'm not just saying that simply because he wants it... I really do want someone special to spend the rest of my life with. Hot Editor has also mentioned, sneakily, several times, that maybe he'd like to meet me. I'm thinking I'd like that too, but I don't want to rush... Sign in to see full entry.