My life

I am so happy with the performance of my stocks over the last few weeks. This would seem like another empty boast from most people, but for me it comes as a lifesaver! The landlord has just raised the rent for our house, and I was truly worried that I might have to move out. After the death of my mother, this seemed like a little too much to bear. There is an alternative, and that is to ask for housing benefits. This would come in handy, but it would mean the government crawling all over my... Sign in to see full entry.

Thank you, to everyone who left the very kind-hearted words after the death of my mother. I'm the first person to remember that life goes on, and I really want to write about other things. I don't want to be the person who just writes about themselves and plays on the fact that I've just been through something tragic. The world is in a crazy place right now. I have made a little money from the high oil price, and it will go higher. There are a few people around here in the UK that have electric... Sign in to see full entry.

Sadly, Mum passed away on Tuesday at 16.45. She went peacefully and in no pain. Everyone has been really nice and helpful and things went a lot smoother than I thought. I was dreading the final day, but up until now there have been no dark moments. One of the reasons I wanted her to pass in the hospital, was that they would take care of all the details. But with the district Nurses coming in every day, and the carers, things have gone softly. I have been involved in these things before and the... Sign in to see full entry.

With Mum on an end-of-life package now, things are very different. I'm sorry I have not posted a thing on here and feel I'm missing out. But after Mum had her second stroke, she can no longer walk or move her right arm. The doctor found a growth in her stomach that is too dangerous to operate on. So she's back here on morphine in the hope that she can at least die in her own home. She has moments when she comes back, and drinks a lot of fluids, but eats nothing. The Nurse comes in every day, and... Sign in to see full entry.

Well, once again, I find myself having to catch up with a long spell of absence. A lot has happened since my last entry. Mum has ended up back in the hospital. She had another stroke and lost the feeling in her right side. She is coming back slowly, but I fear she will never come back to our house, as she needs long-term care. I am very worried about being able to keep up the cost of living in the house, but I will retire in September and can get my pension. If this comes off, I will have enough... Sign in to see full entry.

I've just watched a video on YouTube about the early internet and what came before it. Overcome with a sense of nostalgia, I wanted to try and remember my first encounter with the Web. I can remember using Lycos and the AOL boards, long before Google was even thought of. They were hard work and often ended in nonsense, but it was an introduction to the big world. The first internet was an old US Navy system, and someone pointed out that in a nuclear war, it would die long before the people. So... Sign in to see full entry.

We are still here! Mother is still not well, and refuses to get out of bed. But she has had 2 cases of flu, which would have felled anyone else. We are so suspicious of the medical profession, as their only answer is to simply put Mother in a home. Where she would not last a month. More to the point, I could not afford to live in our house. I have a small income, and my pension kicks in later in the year. But it's still not enough. The income from the shares will increase this year, but I am... Sign in to see full entry.

I shouldn't complain, really. Things are going well for us right now, and the money has never been better. I do worry about my mother not getting a good night's sleep. I've tried some herbal tablets, but she says they wake her up more than anything. Another little problem I want to try and resolve is my sister Sarah. She has not been in touch for 2 years now, and I feel my mother finds this stressful. They were more like best friends back in the day when we had horses. But they have drifted... Sign in to see full entry.

With Christmas coming up, I think back to earlier holidays which I really enjoyed. My favourite was 1978 and 79. This was the time when I left the Coop supermarket and the job insulating roofs and found myself on the dole. I had no big rent to find in those days, as we lived in a house that went with mother's job. The Christmases before that were ones where my stepfather was still in the house, before he went off with another woman. Once he was gone, there was a height lifted from our lives, and... Sign in to see full entry.

Little has changed for us, but the subscription for Bloggit is coming round again, and I want to justify the right to keep this account open. I see AI is creeping into everything. Most of the videos on YouTube are cobbled together with AI writing tools, so you end up with the craziest stories. But you can't tell if they are all false. I know students are now checked for plagiarism in essay writing, but who checks up on all this? I bet it’s an AI doing all the work. Very worrying for young people... Sign in to see full entry.