Jeff's Journal

Both Mom and Dad are telling me not to count on being able to retire. I guess they're right, I could be turned down. If they do turn me down though, it shows they truly don't understand how sick I am. It's very clear that I'm too sick to do the job and if they don't see that something's wrong. The... Sign in to see full entry.

So it turns out I'm not retired--yet. Apparently November 1 was just a rough estimate. Maybe I should have been more careful to have them specify November 1 of what year. So I roll merrily on spending 'bout half my time at work and half in bed sick watching reruns of The King of Queens. Meanwhile... Sign in to see full entry.

Finally doing a bit better. Looks like I'll make it to work tomorrow for what may or may not be my last day. There should be no question but there is. I left a message for Ms Kennedy in personnel. Sign in to see full entry.

I was doing better this morning, then I was doing worse, now I'm doing better but not as well as this morning. I supposed to retire Friday maybe so I'd better try hard to get to work the next couple days. I don't even know if my retirements been approved. If it has I'll have more paperwork to do so... Sign in to see full entry.

Gloie gave me the bright idea to call personnel to see if my disability has been approved if i can't make it in to work. Duh! That's one of the things this disease does keeps me from thinking clearly Got my first email from the folks who are supposed to help me get SSA. Looks pretty good so far. If... Sign in to see full entry.

I couldn't even make it to church this morning. All I had to do was drive ten minutes and sit in a chair but I wasn't up to it. Sheesh. Doing a bit better now. Work tomorrow is anybody's guess. I'll try hard to make it at least part of the day since it's supposed to be my last week and I want to... Sign in to see full entry.

I've been having a good 'ol time on Facebook. One can get hooked and spend too much time, but basically I think it's a good use of time--'cause it's fun! This depression is the most unpredictable thing I've ever dealt with. A few hours ago, I could barely get out of bed. Now I'm a lot better though... Sign in to see full entry.

These bouts with depression are getting more frequent and lasting longer. Maybe it's the cooler weather. Ms Hamlin was none too happy when I called her this morning. It's understandable since she has to do my work. I've never heard her sound so stressed out. I think I'll take a shot at going back... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm worn out. I don't know whether it's the depression or just working hard or both. Still no news on the retirement situation. Some folks at work seem to think I might get turned down, but I don't think so. If they look at the doctor's report, my attendance record, my evaluations it's abundantely... Sign in to see full entry.

Well I'm kinda sorta tired. Didn't really think I worked that hard. No word on retirement yet. They're cutting it kind of close. only ten more days til the day I'm supposed to retire. I can't believe they would even think about turning me down but they've done dumber things. I wonder if there's an... Sign in to see full entry.