Jeff's Journal

Boy do I feel great. Felt horrible yesterday, bad this morning, so-so this afternoon and pretty darn good right now. This illness certainly keeps me guessing. If I continue to do well, I'll go back to the office tomorrow to clean out my desk and say goodbye. Kind of looking forward to that, seeing... Sign in to see full entry.

If this is retirement, you can have it. Worst day I've had in many months. Could barely get out of bed most of the day. Might have something to do with the rain. I sure hope that Zoloft kicks in soon Sign in to see full entry.

Finally! I'm retired. Feels sort of weird, it hasn't fully sunk in yet. I'm going to go to the office tomorrow to clean out my desk and say goodbye. It's been kind of weird the last couple of days watching other people work and knowing I won't be anymore. I guess everyone's life has some surprizes... Sign in to see full entry.

And on it drags. I have more forms to fill out and bring back to personnel tomorrow. Then I'll be retired, maybe. All I can do is laugh to keep from crying. $233 for a tire and an alignment on my car. I may be able to get some of it back. I bought some sort of car repair insurance when I bought the... Sign in to see full entry.

Today is Tina's birthday. Tina was the Anita of the mid 1980s the love of my life at that time. I managed to persuade her to go out on one date, for lunch. Well I had lunch, she had coffee. I wonder where she is now or even if she's still alive. Couldn't find her on facebook. Tina helps remind me... Sign in to see full entry.

Things are looking up. I'm beginning to feel better and I finally got my estimate of benefits, so I might be able to retire Monday if there are no more surprizes. I'm going to miss my coworkers and even miss the job a little but it's all for the best. Had a brief bout of diarrhea this morning, I... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm trying to act like I'm not sick. Going to the Bagel Bin, taking Melanie to the post office, coming to the library to work on the computer. I'm managing to function some but I still feel lousy. May go to the hospital but I'm trying not to. Too much business to take care of. If I go to the... Sign in to see full entry.

Don't think I'm going to make it to Mom's tomorrow. Barring an amazing recovery I'm not going to be well enough to drive that far safely or to enjoy the visit for that matter. May get with Melanie. I don't mind being by myself for Thanksgiving and I'm too sick to care anyway. Long time ago on... Sign in to see full entry.

I felt horrible this morning. Might have gone to the hospital but I didn't want to mess up Thanksgiving. I feel a little better now, but I'll never make it to Mom's house for Thanksgiving unless I get a lot better between now and then. Still haven't gotten my estimate of benefits so I can't... Sign in to see full entry.

I think I know what my problem is now. Dr Zhang keeps giving me medication for depression. What I need is medication AGAINST depression Sign in to see full entry.