Jeff's Journal

Another sick day. Sigh. I'm glad to be on Zoloft, I've heard good things about it but like most antidepressants it takes a few weeks to work. I'm guessing anyway. Dr Zhang didn't actually say that. Called two different folks in human resources about getting my health insurance straightened out.... Sign in to see full entry.

Feeling a little better now but I missed church this morning for the second week in a row. Nice to see Lisa. I'm enjoying her now even though I think she may ultimately be demoted to just a friend in favor of Anita. Been reading Psychology Today. Some interesting articles and one bad advice column.... Sign in to see full entry.

Took it easy today and I think maybe it helped. I feel kinda sorta pretty good right now. I'm learning to struggle less, not to try and force things. Just have faith that things are working out okay. It's easier that way. That fender-bender over summer has turned out to be a good thing. That $3400... Sign in to see full entry.

It's been great getting to know Dawn on facebook. She's really starting to feel like my sister. I'm feeling a little better now but who know how long that will last. money situation seems to be okay, thankfully. That car accident turned out to be a lucky break. Don't know whether I'll be seeing Lisa... Sign in to see full entry.

Well that was kind of exciting. Talked to my half-sister Dawn for the first time in 23 years via facebook. Who says those social networking sites are a waste of time? As far as I can tell, I didn't sleep a wink last night but I really don't feel that bad. Might have gone to work if I had known. Sent... Sign in to see full entry.

Feeling a bit better after feeling lousy most of the day. I still feel lousy, just less lousy. Going to try to make it to work at least part of the day tomorrow. Any day now could be my last day Thanksgiving is going to be at Mom's instead of Aunt 'cille's. I may not make it, it's kind of a... Sign in to see full entry.

I still feel lousy, trouble sleeping again last night. On the other hand, Anita called and we had a great conversation. We didn't make a definite date but we talked about some things we could do together and it's clear she's still interested. On top of that my Redskins won. Not only did they win but... Sign in to see full entry.

I take all my medicine, go to all my Doctor's appts and I still feel lousy. I'd hate to see how I'd feel if I didn't do everything I'm supposed to do. Barring an amazing recovery in the next few hours I'll have to miss that dance. People with depression are supposed to find things to look forward to... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel pretty doggone crappy. I think the rain is aggravating my depression, as though it wasn't aggravating enough already. Still haven't gotten the estimate so I'm still an employee for the state of Maryland, even if I'm rarely well enough to actually go in. There was probably no point in my... Sign in to see full entry.

Spent most of yesterday and most of today in bed. At least I'll get paid for yesterday since it was veterans day. I think the rain makes me feel worse. I know I'll feel better once the retirement situation is resolved. I know I'm going to be retiring, I just don't know when. Going to go to that... Sign in to see full entry.