Jeff's Journal

Well my mentioning my midnight erections yesterday seemed to get a rise out of y'all. (pun intended). My blog has been stuck between 24 and 30 in the rankings lately, maybe a little sexual content will raise it higher (pun intended again:) Anyway the retirement saga continues. I haven't gotten my... Sign in to see full entry.

Got three hours in today so that's a little bit of change. Retirement could be tomorrow or the day after or the week after or the month after or the year after or the decade after or the century after. (Correction, it won't be the day after-it's a holiday). Never a dull moment when you work for the... Sign in to see full entry.

Canceled plans with Lisa because I wasn't feeling well. Took a nap, feeling a bit better now. Hopefully, I'll make it to work tomorrow, just a few days left maybe. Looks like I'll get that paid holiday on Wednesday, that will be good. Playing matchmaker with Gloie and Jay B. Maybe that should be my... Sign in to see full entry.

Felt pretty good this morning but now I'm going down just a bit. I was thinking back this morning and I think I've really been even sicker than I've acknowleged these last few years. I always got better and every time I did, thought I was better for good. I was going to go to the Red Cross and give... Sign in to see full entry.

Feeling better now after having insomnia last night. I'm not too worried about it. It's not worth losing sleep over. I wonder if I'm feeling better because it's Friday. If that's it I should be feeling good all the time after I retire. That Wife Swap is an interesting show. Always uplifting in the... Sign in to see full entry.

Hooray! I've been approved for disability retirement. I let folks worry me a little that I may not get approved but I pretty much knew I would be. It's pretty clear that I'm too sick to do the job. Gotta work a few more days until all the I's are crossed and the t's are dotted. I won't have to worry... Sign in to see full entry.

I've resisted it this long but I'm going to the hospital in a little bit. Usually I only go if I'm having suicidal thoughts. I'm not thinking of suicide now but my bouts of depression are coming more often and lasting longer. I hope they can do something Anita's latest email seems to be pushing me... Sign in to see full entry.

I was going to go to the hospital but I changed my mind. I'm not feeling that badly. I'll go tomorrow if I don't feel any better Nami meeting was very worthwhile this evening. I think I'll keep going. I'm glad it meets every week. Got a couple of chuckles from my joke about wanting to retire at... Sign in to see full entry.

Not depressed today but I was up all night so I stayed home today. Maybe daylight savings time threw me off. I appreciate everyone's advice about being honest with Lisa and Anita. They both know about the other even though I haven't even been out with Anita yet. No secrets. So by not going in today,... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel pretty darn good today. This is why I waited so long to apply for disability. I would get better and I would assume I would stay that way. Wrong! It could be that I'm feeling well because it's Sunday, but I've had plenty of other weekends where I've felt like crap. The decision on going to... Sign in to see full entry.