Jeff's Journal

Just wrote in my rich journal for the first time since March. The idea is to write down what that day would be like if I were rich. I figure if I start to see myself as rich, I'll become rich. It's fun in any case. I debated last night about going to that "Choose Civility" event. I was afraid I'd... Sign in to see full entry.

Well there goes Mom again holding over my head the fact that she paid some of my bills while I was in the hospital. As though I could have paid them from there. As though I asked her to. I feel sort of stupid. All this time when Mom was sending me money I didn't need and didn't ask for I thought she... Sign in to see full entry.

My first session with my therapist since the seizure and it went very well Suzanne (my therapist) was very supportive and made me feel a lot better. Now I know for sure that my parents are crazy and not me. (Well I am crazy but in a different way:) I never in a million years thought I would cut off... Sign in to see full entry.

Got the paperwork to take my name off Mom's bank account had it notarized and sent it back to her. It's all pretty irrational. If I hadn't had the seizure the bills would have been paid on time and it would have been no problem. I can't really complain though. It's her money she only had my name on... Sign in to see full entry.

Well now my Dad is getting involved. Says he's cutting me mostly out of his will, giving most of the money he would have left me to charity. I probably would have given most of it to charity anyway so he's just cutting out the middleman. He thinks I can't get along without him and my mother.... Sign in to see full entry.

My mother is even more out of control than I thought. My roommate told me that she had been there at 10:30 one night while I was in the hospital--cleaning, vacuuming making a lot of noise and generally disturbing her. She also threw out a newspaper I was saving. It contained a letter to the letter I... Sign in to see full entry.

I guess Mom just can't or won't take me seriously. She wants me to sign papers to take my name off her bank account. No problem there, it's her money. But she wants to come down here personally to have me sign it. What part of "I don't want to see you" doesn't she understand? I suggested she mail... Sign in to see full entry.

I realize that if I don't talk to folks who are trying to invade my privacy if won't matter what they know so I'm unsuspending my journal. It's been a wild ride. 5 weeks, 3 hospitals. Started with a seizure in the Dunkin' Doughnuts I'm told. Caused by a reaction to Wellbrutin. Nothing to do with the... Sign in to see full entry.

Jeff's journal is being suspended due to privacy issues related to my recent illness. I'll be back. Or not Sign in to see full entry.

I seem to be doing a bit better but I still made an appointment to see Dr. Zhang tomorrow. Otherwise it would be three more weeks I'm sort of wondering if it might be something besides the depression. Have some different symtoms---trouble talking, trouble keeping my balance. shaky hands Guess I'll... Sign in to see full entry.