My life

Sometimes I wonder if these entries are not just memos to myself. I mean, am I writing them as part of a greater work that I want to sell to the world, or just diary entries? I used to worry that everything I write here is going to be analysed by the whole world, who will pass judgement upon my every word. Were as the truth is, people are polite but we all have our own problems, right? One of the reasons for writing this is to make me feel better about life. A sort of therapy. And to that end I... Sign in to see full entry.

This is another attempt to get down an account of my life. As I’ve said before, I would hate to read a biography about ME. It would so boring and only of interest to about 3 people. So this is a better way of getting things down. Co-op Stamford. This picture is of the entrance to the old co op in Stamford. I worked there from 1976- 1978, or there about’s. It was an awful job full of bullies, but it taught me that there was something fundamentally wrong with the creature called S Lambert. Other... Sign in to see full entry.

This was the place I used to work at. From 1987 to 1998. The reason I captured this photo was because this was the window I worked at. I worked at a metalwork guillotine cutting sheet steel. And I used to look out this window at the real world and wonder if I would ever escape. Was this the end/ Was this all it would ever amount to? And is this what it had all lead up to? As you might have gathered, I was a little anxious about the future. So I include this picture because it is proof that you... Sign in to see full entry.

I’ve been thinking more about giving an account of my life, with pictures. Tamiya This is an early point in my life. Really I was an Airfix boy, as I had almost all the military tanks and most of the aircraft in their catalogue. But Tamiya was a bit more professional for model makers, and has even been used in some arts projects. I still looked on them as toys, so maybe this was my move from childhood to the teen age years. I was obsessed with the Nazis and all their tanks. What happened to all... Sign in to see full entry.

Have you ever thought about presenting your life in the form of a video or slideshow? Few have. Fewer even want to. When I’m involved with rituals, you have to have a representation of who wants the thing done. In other words, who are you? When you stand before the Gods, who exactly are they addressing? Usually most people just put a photo of themselves and say Hi. But for me that’s not enough. And I feel you have to give an account of yourself. Sometimes I’ve made up a picture collage and hoped... Sign in to see full entry.

This is just a piece to keep my hand in. Every morning I check my usual pages as a routine. One of these is Facebook. I see people giving their views on all sorts of things, even posting videos. But I never think this is me. I love to post stuff here, as I know no one from work would ever look at it. For that reason I feel compelled to tell the truth as I feel it. And that would not suit them. They had to sack a kid last week. Jamie. He was cruising for a bruising, as he was not the sharpest... Sign in to see full entry.

When I watch or listen to a lot of the science on the web, I can’t stop thinking about space ships and travel. With the launch of the Dragon craft this week to the space station, I can see that even with private enterprise, space is a tough place to go. So what’s the answer? I think it’s through Star Gates. Like the TV show, it’s a lot easier to just step through a machine or a doorway, and come out where ever you want. This wipes away a lot of problems. As you don’t have to go into space, and... Sign in to see full entry.

If you believe my stars for the past few days, things are about to really improve for me. I take astrology with a pinch of salt, but keep an open mind. I must admit that my plans for finding a loop-hole in the lottery system are going well. I regally get 2 numbers, and can predict at least one. This isn’t a fortune, but small amounts build up. And I only have to get 4 on regular basis and this is a real income. I can’t see the point in bothering with 4 or 5, it’s never going to happen. Even... Sign in to see full entry.

Have you ever heard those stories about political prisoners being detained then let off the hook for no real reason? That’s how I feel. Mo******ns is a strange place, but if you keep your head down and keep going, you can get through. It solves nothing and nothing really gets resolved, but you can keep going. You live in fear of that problem coming back to haunt you, and the same old demons step back into the light. I think it’s because I despise myself for allowing these creatures to talk to me... Sign in to see full entry.

Tomorrow is the day I return to work after a week’s holiday. Normally I would be relaxed about this, but for one thing. Mo*****ns is cutting back to the point where they don’t care if the place carries on. So the pressure to get rid of staff is very intense. So the mood of the place is very black, and the only thing you can think of, is to leave. Now the irony is, that I think I can make enough money on the Web and with benefits, to live nearly as good as I do now. So I hate myself for being... Sign in to see full entry.