Saturday, August 14, 2004
Moodiness
It wouldn't be a surprise if someone with manic depression was moody, but Brenda's moods are very predictable. As her deprakote level drops, she becomes more agitated and paranoid. When she drinks coffee she becomes even more hyper and paces even faster. I wish she would walk instead of pace. I...
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Friday, August 13, 2004
Last Night
was a difficult night, the daughter who is in crisis, Brenda, is having a hard time. Her doctor prescribed her the wrong medication. Instead of giving her the extended release of Deprakote, she gave her the regular deprakote. She was really doing well in the morning, but by evening she was paranoid....
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Thursday, August 12, 2004
Things look better
My daughter is looking better. She may be recovering a little. We will go to the art museum today. She used to love art. Part of her recovery from her second mania and subsequent severe depression was to visit art museums in Europe. Travel can be a wonderful healer. It is stimulating, but relaxing....
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Living with Less
The hardest part about mental illness is recognizing that our daughters will never have a normal life. They will never reach their potential. The daughter who is relatively well, is doing well in school academically, but she is awkward socially. She has no concept of how to fit in. She wears white...
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
My daughter's aren't the only one who is mentally ill.
I am too. I had a repeated pattern of depression. I also am obsessive compulsive. I have a manics way of doing everything to excess. I'm certain that my alcoholism was spurred by my depression. I have had periods of mild mania, when i spent too much money, because pressured, couldn't sleep etc....
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Sunday, August 8, 2004
Empty Nest
Nothing about having daughters with a mental illness is normal. Most mothers mourn the empty nest. I look forward to it. My daughters are twenty three and one of my daughters doesn't appear to be able to live home very soon. No matter how much you love your children, dealing with someone with a...
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Saturday, August 7, 2004
Visiting the psychiatrist
Is worse than going to the dentist. Especially if you are the mom and your daughter is the patient. No matter what it may appear to be, the reality is that the mother is on trial. Your daughter is sick because you made her that way. It might have been that she had a genetic disorder, but you failed...
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Thursday, August 5, 2004
Reality
My daughters are a long ways from being able to live on their own. They do not have the emotional capacity to deal with life as it is. Their mental illness is so prominent, that it has prevented them from being able to grow up normally. Instead of worrying about boyfriends, college and jobs. They...
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Friday, October 24, 2003
Mothers and Daughters
My mother is eighty nine as of October 4. I have finally made peace with her and enjoy her presence. My twin daughters are twenty-two and enjoy both of them and we have a good though not perfect relationship. They want to spend more time with me, rather than less unlike my mother and I did. Because...
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Sunday, August 10, 2003
Back from Soap Lake
The psoraisis never went away entirely. We ran out of time and patience. Brenda was just starting to do it on her own the day we left, but he sister Kelly had a problem which we needed to return home to deal with right away. There are many reasons why Brenda didn't get it until the end. First of...
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