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Sunday, January 31, 2010

Confrontation finally with Guitar Guy

I finally admitted Guitar Guy to my life again last night. He came by in the evening, picked up a piece of his mail that I left magnetted to the door, and was leaving when I spotted him and opened the door. For a month now he has been entirely persona non grata here since his escapade while I was away. I have not picked up the phone when he calls, have left the matter untouched. Why? What he did was a huge breach of boundaries and of trust, and had he been anyone, any stranger, that would have... Sign in to see full entry.

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Friday, January 29, 2010

family history revelations

I received a note from a cousin today. Her mom, my mother's sister, died last summer. This letter contains a write up of my aunt's reminiscences about their childhoods, things I have never heard before. Our family tree is one of the crazy ones, with many unexpected branches and little that moves in straight lines. Many who have read here a while know my mother died when I was 3; I spent the next three years living with her parents, at which point my grandmother died, and I went to live again... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, January 26, 2010

a rant... a low-energy morning...

My dad never did get what feelings are, what they mean to other people. He didn't ever understand why my mom would tear up and even cry over movies. I once had a man in my life who thought that the only pain that matters must involve physical symptoms. If you aren't bleeding, don't bother him with it, it isn't real and can't possibly matter. Another, a friend, who received very well indeed, as much as I had to offer, and when I needed him for anything at all that was not about where he was going... Sign in to see full entry.

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Saturday, January 23, 2010

Update: Guitar Guy

Glancing back over the last pages, which, like life, are full of unfinished stories, there are some updates due... First one back that is possibly of interest is Guitar Guy. I knew there had to be consequences for his huge breech of my trust and boundaries, his rewriting of the basic rules understood between us. I also knew that to rage at him, to express my anger angrily would not be productive in any long-term sense. As it has happened, the consequences have decided themselves: It is now three... Sign in to see full entry.

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Sunday, January 17, 2010

A dream of love and goodbyes...

I woke this morning, crying. This is the dream I woke from: Jean Luc Picard was saying goodbye to his lover, kissing her very tenderly... deeply passionate but not sexual... Her husband appears in the moment between them, and he is jealous and angry but quiet and full of resentful dignity and sadness... JL looks at him with great sympathy, and when he kisses her again, the husband brings his face next to hers, and JL kisses him, too, showing him the kind of kiss he gives his lover... to help him... Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, January 11, 2010

I don't think I mentioned this before...

While I was away for the holidays, I made arrangements for Davy Dog to hang out with other canines in a fine and friendly environment, and for the lady who manages it in her home to come by here daily to be sure the cats were well, fed and watered. How surprised she was to discover that someone was in the house, using it, making himself quite at home. Yes, Guitar Guy, my homeless friend... who distinctly did not have an invitation to do this. He was over for Christmas Eve--a gift to him, to... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, January 5, 2010

More music to start the year

My 2010 got its proper start on Sunday Jan 3. First, I had two movies to watch--the ones I rented just before leaving for Christmas, didn't have time to sit down for, and forgot to return. The bill was gonna be hefty--but I was not taking them back until I watched them! There is much to be said in favor of laptops and watching movies in bed. So--started with Final Fantasy: The Spirit Within which was in fact very entertaining, though anime is not my most favorite genre. (This was not stereotypic... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, December 31, 2009

The Last Day of the Year

What did you do to finish off 2009? I got licked by a giraffe... Charlie got head-butted by another giraffe. Just think, we nearly got through the year with neither of those experiences! How sad would that have been, to have missed them? And what will the first thing be, that you do in 2010? It's said, after all, that whatever you are doing, it will set the tone for the whole year. I can think of a couple of things, and the likeliest is that I will be writing when the year turns, or working with... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Transitions: new books; new outlooks considering Eros

It has been pretty chilly in Colorado this week, and we don't have a car to get around, so son Charlie and I have been limited in our getting about. However, one of his friends drove us out to Garden of the Gods on Sunday. The photos you may have noticed are accessible through a flickr link posted in the Adventuring blog. Today I took the best of them and put them into a new mypublisher book. It is unsurprisingly titled: Garden of the Gods. If you would like to see it, their system asks me to... Sign in to see full entry.

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Saturday, December 19, 2009

a seasonal reminder...

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I'm doubtful the events of my life will be of great general interest, but I'd like to share a little more of me to the several of you on Blogit I've come to feel are real friends, and the many I imagine are potentially real friends. We'll see how it works out. ______________________ all my words and images posted on Blogit are copyright 2005-present, all rights reserved.

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