Miaella's Little Black Book.

Little Girl Wakely is going to sing the blues. Keep in mind she was 2 1/2 here. Sign in to see full entry.

-When she gets old enough, I'm going to let her help me blog. Wakely...aka candy fiend. "Hand over the candy and nobody gets hurt!" Her dad was raising her to be: A ballerina A surfer A skater A musican (guitar) And most importantly...his little princess. Sign in to see full entry.

This is me at the Bee's Party. We had so much fun!! It was also the last time I saw my brother alive. My brother was such a handsome guy, so full of love and light. I will miss him. Sign in to see full entry.

~He was two and a half ~I was six I would come home from school and he would greet me at the door. He would always run to me as though he had waited all day for me to get home. I looked forward to his, "Mom made cookies. Not just cookies, but freshly baked chocolate chip cookies straight from the... Sign in to see full entry.

Is this normal? Is it because she hears us call our father "dad"...and she doesn't have one anymore...that she now calls him dad too? It's very strange. She's never done this before and now when you ask her about her dad, she asks which one. It puzzles me. I know when she grows older she'll have a... Sign in to see full entry.

~When she was told her daddy died, she was very solemn but seemed to understand. A few weeks prior to her dad's death, her dog had died, and heaven had been explained to her. A little while later she stared out her window, her face turning sad, and tears brushing her lashes. Her mother looked over... Sign in to see full entry.

and talks of life and death. Last night we went to Mellow Mushroom for pizza and blueberry beer. My brother loved his beer. It felt wrong being there without him. The family was quiet and somber...especially my mother. I think she is mad at me. I have been wearing make-up, dressing nice, and going... Sign in to see full entry.

but is it wrong to hang up pictures of the dead? And I don't mean pictures of them when they were alive. I mean dead and in the casket. Isn't there something wrong about that? I think so...but I can't make my mother understand. There is no soul inside a dead body...so it isn't even a person... Sign in to see full entry.

-Those were my mother's words to us. What can we say? Her only biological son died. Her favorite child. I understand her for he was my favorite person as well. Even when he hurt me...he was still my favorite person. Why does God take the best of the best? He was: The best musican in the family. He... Sign in to see full entry.

We picked a light blue casket with the same color lining. I immediately thought my brother would complain because it looked like an old man's polyester suit. My brother was a simple guy. He loved guitars, surf boards, music, and his daughter. His daughter was his world, and in her, he found so much... Sign in to see full entry.