Miaella's Little Black Book.

It was such a beautiful opera. If you know the story of Madame Butterfly...then you know that it is a tale that is painfully bittersweet. But probably the most memorable part of the night...was when the tiny girl that played Madame Butterfly's son threw up on stage in front of hundreds of people.... Sign in to see full entry.

Among other loves is Scriber...a modern day Henry Miller...writing raw with language and descriptions. Holygrail..her writing places you in the moment, so you’re dirtying your own hands with the stain of blood. You can smell the fear, hear the laughter, and touch the flames of humanity when you read... Sign in to see full entry.

It's hard to go forward when you want to go back. My brother was my favorite person in all the world, and selfish me finds it impossible to love anyone else right now. I want to love the rest of my family, but the person who meant the most to me is no longer here, and I fear without him, I'm just... Sign in to see full entry.

~ A Sad day In the median of HWY 98...aka. Death Highway where my brother laid face down in the sand breathing his last before a witness of many...that spot where his blood still remains, and where you can imagine an imprint of his body..The flowers, the angel, and candy cane are gone. A thief took... Sign in to see full entry.

Ah...there was a list of ten things but... it got tucked in a pocket, dropped on the dirty ground, walked on by feet, dragged through the mud, crumbled and tossed, plucked out by a squirrel, tossed into a fountain, blown into the trees, left in the rain, dried by the sun, webbed by a spider, knocked... Sign in to see full entry.

But if you have something funny or uplifting I can read, let me know. I can seriously use some cheering up. Much Sign in to see full entry.

Good Morning Everyone or Night...depending where you are...haha. Tonight my lil sister from Big Sisters of America gets to spend the night. We've been sisters now for about 8 months. I'm her fourth big sister. I'm also her longest match. Exciting, huh? An actual slumber party. Stay up late. Eat junk... Sign in to see full entry.

Did he know he was going to die? I remember calling my brother, usually after spending the day with my niece. I'd say, "You did an amazing job with her. When I have kids you're going to have to help me raise them, I'm going to be clueless." He laughed but said nothing. I continued on. (I tend to... Sign in to see full entry.

My life is on auto pilot right now. It's a good thing too, because I don't think I can deal with anything right now. Especially the news that my mother may have cancer. I don't want to think about it. I can't comprehend it. I already lost the most important person in my life. So I try to find ways... Sign in to see full entry.

Why should my brother be any different? I'm crying at work while I write this, praying that the phone doesn't ring, and no one walks in. Especially nosey people who want to talk. And yes, they think they can relate because their pet goldfish Sam has just died, or their friend just had a heart attack... Sign in to see full entry.