Temporary scars

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Monday, May 21, 2007

I am once again called a songwriter

In my hayday, I was a songwriter. I always had lyrics running through my head, always had my guitar to hand when a melody came. Today I can call myself a songwriter again because for the last while, I have been having song ideas in my head. All I need now is the physical space to sit down and write.... Sign in to see full entry.

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Friday, May 18, 2007

It's hard to know where to begin...

I know where it ends. Today I am going for counselling, for the first time in two years. I had become strong and independent, not needing that kind of help. But now, again, I do. See, a few weeks ago on the second day of term, I had a panic attack in class. I was flustered about my Management case... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

He said goodbye to his best friend

Michael's best friend Chris has just taken off from Manchester about five minutes ago, at midday. He's emigrating to North Carolina, marrying his woman next month. Michael has been best friends with him for about 14 years, as well as being in band with him for 10 years, and they said goodbye last... Sign in to see full entry.

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Sunday, May 13, 2007

At the top end of the rollercoaster

I've been finding it hard to write lately. For anyone who remembers my last few entries, you'll probably be able to understand why. I used to be able to write about anything. In fact, I used to not be able to stop writing. And now I'm struggling to get this far. There's lots of things that have gone... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, May 1, 2007

I'm still here

Yes, I'm still around, I haven't disappeared completely. I have plenty to write about, I just don't know how to put it all in words just now. I'll be back very soon to display to the world just what's been going on with me.:) Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

I'm about to have a nervous breakdown

Boy, it's been a long time since I've written something like that... Aside from everything that's been going on with the boy, I've had university crap to deal with. I felt I was coping rather well, considering the circumstances. All that changed today. We were told last week that our course... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Since the break up

I've had my bad days and good days. I've been in contact with Michael in one way or another every day since the break up. I spent £15 on my phone in 5 days, and I can't afford to top it up again until after Easter. I'm horrendously broke. I cried a lot last week. Spent almost every night crying... Sign in to see full entry.

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Sunday, March 4, 2007

We broke up

A week shy of our three year anniversary, we broke up today. It was amicable, but I don't really feel up to writing about it right now. He's still my friend, and a really good one at that, so things could be good for us in that way. He called me amazing for how I reacted to everything, like not... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

So...

I spent two hours this evening with Danny. He's my only friend in Barnsley. He's known Michael for years, and it's through Michael that we met, but he likes me better and thinks Michael's an arse. I asked him to come round because I didn't want to be on my own, I wanted to get out of the mindset of... Sign in to see full entry.

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Since when did he become my entire existence?

Yeah that's kinda what I'm thinking now. He's not my entire life, but he seems to be taking up my every waking thought. And not in a good way. I was to be going to Michael's second gig of the week tonight. I was expecting to get a call letting me know he was coming to pick me up, but what I got was... Sign in to see full entry.

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