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Tuesday, September 6, 2005

How I came out

I was 10 years old when I first started liking a girl. She was my best friend in primary school, and at that stage I had no idea what 'gay' was. That was around the time I had experienced something quite unpleasant, of a sexual nature. On Friday, October 30th 1992, I witnessed my 6 year old sister... Sign in to see full entry.

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A word from Kain, the alternate reality

† My heart beats, and bleeds, for one. That one perfect girl, who is out of my reach completely. She is so close to me, and always will be, yet I will never be who she needs me to be. † I am always in the right place at the right time, always there for that raven haired woman. But still she slips... Sign in to see full entry.

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Saturday, September 3, 2005

My boyfriend is uncomfortable with my sexuality

But he always has been. So where's the problem? The problem is, he's turning it against me. Maybe I should start at the beginning... I once had a friend, who I met during the most complicated times of my life. She saw me through a lot of it. These problems were identity issues. I was having trouble... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

I still love him...

Is it wrong to dream about another man, when you're in a long-term relationship? That's what happened last night. I had a dream about Nathan for the first time in a long time. I've been happy with my boyfriend over the last year and a half, he's hardly done anything to upset me or hurt me. Most... Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, August 29, 2005

Decisions, decisions...

When it comes down to it, what is more important? Attending the first few lectures of my second year of my degree and getting a tour round my new university, or celebrating my grandparents' 50th wedding anniversary? Upsides of option 1: • Getting to see my boyfriend on September 15th instead of 22nd... Sign in to see full entry.

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Friday, August 26, 2005

When one is bored, one shops

Yep, that's what I've been doing: using my credit card and purchasing absolutely gorgeous gothic clothing. Hopefully my new-found beauty will arrive within a couple of days. So exciting! Swimming was one event that happened today. I attempted yet again to conquer my fear of water getting in my eyes... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I fear you, Aquarius...

The time has come for me to face up to a few things. Admission and confession are very liberating things. I am less than what I have made myself out to be. I have flaws, many of which I have trouble accepting. But I'm gonna start slowly. I am a musician, first and foremost. I always say that, even... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Mata Hari, my inspiration

Strength Eternal Fingers trace Along black silk stockings Blood rushes to my heart As I take in the fact and fiction Who could have lived beyond her? Delicate toes Step inside high-heeled slippers Tears dry up on my skin Mine of Irish heritage Javanese was her possibility Ribbons tie Across... Sign in to see full entry.

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To what will never be...

I took you for granted, always expected you to be there. Forgot that you couldn't always be. And when you are here, the distance still rears its ugly head. Why can't it be different to this? Why can't I be there? I'm nothing more than a little girl inside. Naive, guilty of exaggeration and... Sign in to see full entry.

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