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If I could reclaim my life.... Posted on: 04/09/2007 at 12:54pm (3002 of 3002) Dear Tammie, You are a worthy woman, you have many qualities that God has gifted you with that you will be using for good. Beware that what you have endured will, at times cause in you fear, so be aware that some of those fears will come from deep inside- allow them to come and honnor yourself and your journey. Do not deny that you and your daughter have been raped and robbed of so many precious hours that God intended for you to share together. Do not accept that abuse is ever ok, and continue to build a life that is free from all forms of discrimination and abuse. Live your life free, and be the woman your child can look to as a example of a strong healthy woman, she will oneday need this example, and oneday she will be free to choose her own path. Be the solution today for yourself, be the loving mother to yourself that you want and be the loving wife to your new husband. Be the loving woman to other women, and be the greatest member of any community you join, and be a great leader, and be full of grace, and do not let the fear take you over. The pain will either turn you into a diamond or it will turn you into a full grown woman who can neither move forward or backward. Know that you can move in pain, know that it will not hurt forever, and know that you will heal. All loss great and small will build in you a belief system, and based on this belief system you will act- remember not to act in hate, and remember to rest when you are angry, because you will get angry at those who have taken from you and those who have raped you and your daughter. You and your daughter will heal, and one day, you will laugh again, and act only in love, rest when you are tired- your actions will not be in love, and you owe it to yourself to love yourself. Take care of us, please take care of us, rest your mind when it begins to slip into dark places- please stay in the light of love, and hope and joy. Focus yourself on gratitude, and remember that thorns have roses. Your friend, Yourself©

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Dear Miss Hannah

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Yesterday I gave away a pink flower, a pink sash, and a light green and white scarf to a man in our neighborhood. He dresses like a woman, and so out of respect for his belief it is right to refer to him as, “her” to honor the way he identifies with himself from the inside out. This is called “meeting someone where they are”. It is something that social workers do, it is something that I learned in school, to honor people for who they are from the inside out and to meet them exactly where they are in life. I have seen this person around the new downtown campus of ASU a lot walking around in dresses, and have tried a few times to have a conversation but she is not very friendly. She yelled at me to leave her alone when I gave her the flower and the scarf, and the sash- but I just laid it down on the bench and told her it was for her- then I walked away.

Maybe, her life will be better knowing that she was cared about by another person, I hope so. She seems so alone so isolated from the world, and everyone at my school scoffs and makes jokes about her as they walk by. She likes the downtown campus area and frequents the campus, but the kids are mean to her sometimes, and say horrible things as they walk by. It makes me very sad to see someone so alone in the world, and I wish that there was more that I could do. I look forward to seeing her walking around with that bright pink sash, or even the green and white one, because it will be evidence that she picked it up off the bench, and that will prove to me that she accepted my hand of friendship.

Not all people want to be your friend dear daughter, but the people who need a friend most in the world are those who tell you to go away. Enter those friendships with care and caution, and enter them with Gods love in your heart. Remember that God would have us love everyone as he has loved us, and that He has put us here together on earth to enjoy the company of one another and learn from one another. We are all on a journey, that is special, and when we follow our hearts, that journey leads us to moments where Gods work can be done. There is no time for judgment here on earth dear daughter that is the work of our father; our job is to love one another as He has loved us.

Many people are sad and alone in world Hannah, but you are dearly loved- you are loved from the moon, and back to the stars, and all around the Earth and back to the sands of Mexico then over to the Moon again, then the signal bounces off of a NASA satellite and it is sent over to Mars it orbits the Earth twenty times then lands on your front door in the form of this little letter.

Very much love from your mother,

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RE:

State Bar of Arizona Task Force on Persons with Disabilities

Accessibility Committee Site Visit

Arizona Superior Court in Yavapai County

Yavapai County Courthouse

Prescott, Arizona

Team: Mary Birmingham (team leader) (University of Arizona College of Law); Emily Johnston (Board of Governors, State Bar of Arizona); Matt Perry (UA 3L); Melinda Parry (PhD candidate); Bill Sheldon (State Compensation Fund)

Court Personnel: Deborah M. Schaefer (Court Administrator) and Devin Anderson (Court Services Coordinator). Presiding Judge: The Hon. Raymond W. Weaver. Other Courthouse Officials: County Facilities Department, Compliance Specialist - Robert Boyett

Dear Concerned Parties;

I have reviewed the document you produced and published. I find it nearly unbearable and quite biased. Persons with disabilities are not always represented in wheelchairs, and to depict them as such leads to stereotyping that then leads to ignorance in the community. Further, it is only a small percent of persons with disabilities that require wheelchairs, and all of the photos represented and all of the accommodations you mention are dedicated to this small percent of the disabled population. Ironically while you were producing this document I a brain injured person was attempting to use this very same facility, and deemed of poor moral character and told to go “take my medications”. As you see evidenced in DO 2000-0306, a case where this disabled person has been trying to access that same court for the last 7 years. Every attempt however, leads me closer to my own arrest. Please see writings at blogit.com there is a ongoing journal of this experience published and protected by copyright there. The pleadings and documents now being viewed by a larger audience are still intended as instruments to access the courts and at the same time are being published under the name “Harvardgirl” on blogit.com and on two other web sites which are quite popular. Each day the web sites are viewed by at least 187-200 people to see what has happened. And there is quite a large audience building waiting to see what will happen next, and if or when Yavapai County will actually every acknowledge the rights of this disabled parent, or if and when it will continue as it presently is going and she will end up arrested because she has dared to assert her right to leave an abusive marriage. Well those good old boys over there in Yavapai County have managed to keep this little filly contained so far, but we all know that just can not continue for long! You see, this writer understands fully the way that good old boy system works, and she understands it so well, that she has taken the time to write you this here letter to let you know that that document you published is biased, and so is your Commissioner of family law- there is only one way to rid a community of social and economic discrimination of the poor and the disabled- and that is to educate them. So, please review that document again, it promotes a dangerous standard, where people have to “look” disabled in order for those folks up there in Yavapai County to acknowledge them under the ADA. This is a stereotype a community can not afford to promote.

The stereotypes that exist regarding the abilities of the disabled persons extend far beyond your imagination I assure you, they are among the most under-employed and least likely to access goods and services, including access to courts. Most of them live in poverty, and struggle to survive, and some like myself have the misfortune of having a hidden disability that when aggravated makes me look like a lunatic. (Brain damage can look that way sometimes). The point is your representation, of the population in this report, that requires accommodation, and support is both biased and presents a stereotype that paints all disabled people in wheelchairs. This is neither true nor responsible.

Very Warm regards,

Tammie L Anderson

College of Public Programs

Arizona State University

School of Social Work

PO Box 7481

Tempe, AZ

85281

CC

Judge Brutinel

Honorable Rhonda Repp

Make the world safe for diversity

The perseveration of Civil Rights in America it is the duty of us all to pay attention. We are all under obligation to protect and serve our Nation, to live the pledge we have taken, or it means nothing at all. It is not just up to one group of people, it is up to us all. Therefore, I would say we all have to "do so". Perhaps not this pleading, perhaps not this case, but then again why not? Our voice when asserted does matter, or it does not. If it matters then we have preserved our freedoms, if it does not matter then a piece of what we have pledged has faded away. We must all be willing to take the time to make such matters matter- lest the freedoms we pledge to matter become matters of importance that have no significance. Who then shall it matter to? I assert that if it does not matter to us all, then it should since we are all at least living under the guise of a free Nation pledging that freedom belongs to us all- this need not be a guise, if and when we begin to address our grievance and begin to use our voice to make such matters matter to us all. I believe that a grievance when addressed has the power to change the future so that those who might have sat on the back of the bus may sit anywhere they wish. Rosa Parks is our memory of this fact. We honnor those who have taken a stand for our freedoms by reading what they have to say, and we celebrate our own freedoms when we discuss the journey they have taken to get there. This is why our voice matters in the end, sadly I am well aware that few will take the time to honor such a journey, because it is not on television, or it is not on the 6 o'clock news. But, does it need to be? Must every breach of freedom end in a civil disturbance? Can not we as a people begin to discuss in a civil manner the very establishment of our freedoms- Yes this is why in the end our voice matters, because without it, we can not begin to resolve our differences nor make the world a safe place for diversity.©

Thank you for your remarks-

Harvardgirl

This weeks letter to my daughter:

Thursday, March 29, 2007©

Dear Miss Hannah Jane Hofmann,

Enclosed you will find a movie called “Little Miss Sunshine” I told you about this movie last Sunday on our phone call, and I think you will like it. It is about a little girl who is a winner in a pageant, by default. In other words she was the runner up, but the actual winner could not go to the next level, so she gets to go instead. This leads to a journey with her whole family, and as you will see she has a wacky family. It will, I hope make you think of a few things.

The first question I want you to consider after you view the movie is how you are similar to the main character in the movie. In other words, do you have any qualities that are the same as her? Second, what qualities in the other characters make you feel empathy, or compassion for others? You may have to think about this question for a while; it may also require a dictionary. But I want you to work on this question, because it is important that you understand this quality.

Look up the word “empathy” is a special quality that you have a lot of- it is one of my favorite things about you dear daughter, a quality that makes you very unique and truly special.

Harvard is doing well; she has been having some accidents on my bed lately, which are most unwelcome. She has been banned from the bedroom till she can learn not to tee-tee on it. I do not know why she has started to do that, she has a very large back yard to tee-tee in, and I certainly hope she stops this behavior soon. I will miss her company in the bed, I love it when she cuddles me in the bed, it is very comforting and makes my life less lonely.

I have starting to consider plans of my wedding, and Brian wants to marry at the end of summer. I feel it may be too soon, and feel overwhelmed with the very thought of being married again. For goodness sakes it is hard for me sometimes to even wear my engagement ring because it is so awkward a feeling to accept that I am at this unique and lovely place in my life. But God has blessed me, and for this I am grateful, it is lovely that someone has found favor in me, and has accepted me as I am, and would like me to be his bride. I am honored that he has selected me because I never thought I would marry again, and thought I would just learn to be content with the career that I am training for. However, God must have other plans for my life, and He has placed in me a desire to share my life with another human being, and to be a witness to his life, and to have a witness of my life. I think, that is what marriage should be. I never understood that before, but I think I understand it now.

I have been under a lot of stress with school, and the expectations of others continue to drive me to be a better woman. I honestly hope and pray with every breath of my existence that someday you will take this journey for yourself, and go to college. I also hope you will do it as a young person, not an adult like me. It might have been so much more fun if I was a young person doing this- it is very difficult to do it as an adult with a disability. You would be wise not to make this same mistake my dear daughter, and learn from my mistake, and from my journey. But you have your own journey- and God has His own plan for you, of this I am certain. I will continue to trust that God will plant in you a seed to grow your thoughts as big as the ocean, and expand your curiosity as vast as the galaxy and send you on a journey to explore your thoughts and satisfy your curiosity with knowledge and wisdom. You have so much to offer this planet my dear daughter, and your mind, when groomed with knowledge and education will allow you to enter into circles that are beyond what you imagine now. Of this you must trust in me, it is my promise to you- that if you study hard and if you expand your mind your life will be rich on earth and in heaven. You will be well armed to do the work of our Lord – and you will be wise to follow this counsel. I know it is hard to understand this coming from me, someone whom you have no respect for, but you must trust me dear daughter, I was given instincts from God to guide you- and caution you. You must believe at least this Hannah, that education is good for you because is will strengthen your mind, and a strong mind can handle the problems of the world that is a disaster due to the weakness of mankind. We must all have strong minds to overcome the weak thinking and the selfish acts of mankind. It is our calling to go out into the world and to be a light to the world, and you will encounter many weak people out here, you must prepare yourself – spiritually, mentally, and physically.

I challenge you this week to come up with at least one intellectual question about the movie you have been sent. Again you may have to look up the word “intellectual” in a dictionary, or maybe not- I do not know, this is called an assumption.

I love you to the moon and back, then to the shores of each sea, and around the globe twenty times again, then all the way out to Mars, and back to Utah, then over to the South Pacific and over to Jupiter, back to Earth, around the world a few more times while you are sleeping sound with the angels that watch over you, this is how much I love you dear daughter-

P.S. (means post script)

Enclosed is also a picture of a post office in Mc Nary AZ. This is where I use to go when I was about your age every afternoon to pick up love letters from my boyfriend in the summer. His name was Kevin Moore, he lived in Phoenix, and at this time I was living on Holly Lake with my dad and every afternoon my aunt would drive me to the post office you see pictured here to pick up letters. That seemed like a million years ago- but I ran across this picture and thought you would like to see it- it is a part of my history, and it is also a part of me, and you are my daughter, and deserve to know who your mother is, and here is a little piece of my history for you dear daughter- I wish it could be more- but you can only send so much in the mail at a time.

Love never ever ends Hannah, it only grows like a well planted tree in the forest undisturbed – Remember that no matter what you are loved by your mother, and that will never change, and that will never end.

Love your Mom-©

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1-2-3 's of how to get more ASS!

 

1.Do not Stop at red lights, do not pause for yellow- just get to a Starbucks as soon or as quick as possible (if you could use a little more ass), and if your in the UK and need "ARSE" you are directed to do the same.

2.Once you get there, order anything on the menu that looks creamy, or yummy.

3.Drink. Do this everyday for at least a year or maybe two, and your ass will be as big as 78.9% of all the American women who are sending their husbands to get Viagra in America- perplexed because their husbands can not get it up, and once they do- can not keep it up!

 

©Harvardgirl AKA Tammie L Anderson

I was just over at the cafe' on this site and the thought came to me to share this one with the rest of the town-

If I could leave women with any observation I have ever had about Starbucks this is it:

The women who order the creamy filled, or cream on the top, drinks almost always jiggle away as they waddle from the counter.  Who came up with this idea anyway?  Ummm did it go something like this:

"Lets figure out a way to get women to take in more fat in their diet, and get their ass and back of their legs to jiggle like jello more, umm I know lets start a chain of coffee shops and call them Starbucks!"

MEMO TO WOMEN:

Those drinks over there at Starbucks that are creamy and yummy are making your ass look fat.  But on the upside, you have created a new rise in the streach fabric market, and tummy suction is on the rise.  In addition, thanks to your constant consumption of this fat mixed with caffeine you are also seeking more boob jobs to even out your figures- good job women keep up the fat consumption!

-Harvardgirl

I am quite new here to the blogit community, and I love it so far.  I would like to thank everyone for making me feel so welcome and giving me a place to talk about everything from public policy on poverty to troubles with the allmighty penis in my life- (not mine but my boyfriends).  Who knew that being online could be so much fun!

Thank you again for making me feel so welcome!

-Harvardgirl

Who knew blogging could be so interesting.  I feel like I am finally in the Loop...  Didn't really get into the MYSpace thing, this site is so much more user friendly...Three cheers for "Blogging For Dummies"

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