letter to myself posted on OPRA WEBSITE
 | If I could reclaim my life.... Posted on: 04/09/2007 at 12:54pm (3002 of 3002) Dear Tammie, You are a worthy woman, you have many qualities that God has gifted you with that you will be using for good. Beware that what you have endured will, at times cause in you fear, so be aware that some of those fears will come from deep inside- allow them to come and honnor yourself and your journey. Do not deny that you and your daughter have been raped and robbed of so many precious hours that God intended for you to share together. Do not accept that abuse is ever ok, and continue to build a life that is free from all forms of discrimination and abuse. Live your life free, and be the woman your child can look to as a example of a strong healthy woman, she will oneday need this example, and oneday she will be free to choose her own path. Be the solution today for yourself, be the loving mother to yourself that you want and be the loving wife to your new husband. Be the loving woman to other women, and be the greatest member of any community you join, and be a great leader, and be full of grace, and do not let the fear take you over. The pain will either turn you into a diamond or it will turn you into a full grown woman who can neither move forward or backward. Know that you can move in pain, know that it will not hurt forever, and know that you will heal. All loss great and small will build in you a belief system, and based on this belief system you will act- remember not to act in hate, and remember to rest when you are angry, because you will get angry at those who have taken from you and those who have raped you and your daughter. You and your daughter will heal, and one day, you will laugh again, and act only in love, rest when you are tired- your actions will not be in love, and you owe it to yourself to love yourself. Take care of us, please take care of us, rest your mind when it begins to slip into dark places- please stay in the light of love, and hope and joy. Focus yourself on gratitude, and remember that thorns have roses. Your friend, Yourself© |