Jeff's Journal

Felt crappy this morning, better this afternoon and I'm starting to feel worse Sigh. Very frustrating. Got a email from my film instructor giving me permission to turn in my assignment next week. The one that was due about six weeks ago but I haven't gotten to because of my health. The instructors... Sign in to see full entry.

Aimee not only turned me down she did so in a very angry email. Turns out she is engaged which I didn't know because she doesn't wear a ring and I never heard her mention her fiance. I was prepared for the possibility that she might turn me down because she had a boyfriend I didn't know about but I... Sign in to see full entry.

Misspelled Aimee's name in yesterday's entry. Shame on me. I guess maybe I'll hear from her tomorrow. Made it to church this morning it was great as usual. I had Sherri do a treatment (our word for prayer) for my health, which is better but still a bit shaky. I gotta get better, I'm missing to much... Sign in to see full entry.

Over 8,000 clicks on Jeff's Journal! Thank you! Feeling great today better than I have in months. I bow to the God of prozac. Went to the gym. Feeling stronger able to do more. Starting to look a little thinner too. Had a nice chat with Aimee my former mass media teacher yesterday. I enjoyed it so... Sign in to see full entry.

Slept most of the day away again. Sigh. I finally got the stimulant medication Ritalin. I reluctent to take it but I guess I will I don't want to keep sleeping my life away, Plans to go to the zoo are in question because Anita isn't feeling well. Always something. Sign in to see full entry.

Durn, slept most of the day away after having trouble sleeping last night. I think maybe I'll experiment with staying up later, maybe as late a 1:00 or whenever I get tired. That way I can get things done at night instead of lying there watching Golden Girls reruns while I try to get to sleep. I'm... Sign in to see full entry.

Feeling much better now. I think the Prozac is kicking in. The warm weather helps too. My conflict resolution teacher sent me an email saying he was concerned about my being behind and offering to help. That was nice of him. He could have said "To heck with him let him fail." But he wants to help me... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm starting to come out of it a little bit I think. Still feel pretty crappy though. I see my therapist on Wednesday if I'm still feeling lousy then I may talk to her about going to the hospital. I'm not sure they could do much for me but I'm frustrated, I feel like I have to do something. Anita... Sign in to see full entry.

Well I'm writing again I guess that's a sign that i'm doing better. I don't know if it was the depression, a mild flu or a combination of both. Still not up to doing a whole lot though. Nudist swim tomorrow, I'll try to go to that. School not going well I missed both classes this week and I was... Sign in to see full entry.

During class tonight I started thinking about all the places I wanted to go, the things I wanted to do, the books I wanted to read. This is encouraging, I hadn't been thinking those kinds of thoughts lately. Maybe the depression is starting to lift. Been hitting the gym every day and I'm starting to... Sign in to see full entry.