My life

The Roulette plan has had to be put on hold. I simply do not have enough stake money to make it pay. Things are really bad. I’ve put in for a job in the local supermarket, which is about as low as you can go. But there is a good chance of getting it and I have to consider what next. In a way I wish I had been thrown into the world of work from the start. In other words, when my business partner, George died in January. My only real hope is to start up the gardening again. I liked it, it was... Sign in to see full entry.

Having put my roulette plan into action. It did work, and it didn’t. I did make a profit, but I was so nervous about taking the £40 out of my bank account, that I wasted no time in pouring it back. I got up to 60 and each time I took back 10 to put back in the account I borrowed it from. Sure, I got my money back, but because the system relies on leaving the money rolling for a good half an hour, it started to dip. And when it dipped, there was not enough left in it to see me through the bad... Sign in to see full entry.

R ussian Roulette! After reaching the depths of despair I have finally turned to gambling. After a stupid and rash attempt to trust in God and just throw £10 at the table, they matched it with £10 and sat and watched me lose the lot! Since then I have become a little more hard headed. I have run 50 simulations, running an average of up to 200 spins on each (ave: 10,000) and have only lost on 4. The reason for the loss was that I either started out with too little money, or changed the betting... Sign in to see full entry.

Today I had an interview at Newage engineering. Having sub-contracted to them in the past I know what to expect. Not sure if I want the job though. Very good money, and to someone so deep in the stuff as me, I can’t afford to turn it down. But we’ll see what we see. Another interview is for an office junior at the local prison. That is so weird I’m thinking of going just for the hell of it. But a more interesting one is for a local clothing firm. Only packing, but the money is good. Engineering... Sign in to see full entry.

Things are so bad financially that I’m even thinking of going back to gardening for a living. Maybe it’s the lovely sunny weather, but money is so short I’m willing to try anything. If I get another dead end job, I will be a slave again, and breaking my back for so little money, gardening will look like a happy release! So what’s stopping me? The money for the advert. I haven’t even got the £110 for the add in the local paper. How pathetic is that? No matter how hard I try, I cannot see a day... Sign in to see full entry.

After a hacker named:Gary McKinnon got inside the NASA mainframe, some uncomfortable truths have come to light. http://news.bbc.co.uk/nolavconsole/ukfs_news/hi/bb_rm_fs.stm?nbram=1&nbwm=1&bbram=1&news=1&bbwm=1 There does exist an organisation set up solely to keep the UFO idea boiling. Even if this was a scam, used for diss-information, you have to ask yourself- why? Billions of dollars and thousands of people all working to keep an idea going, which even the hardliners on both sides, cast doubt... Sign in to see full entry.

With the prospect of a dead end job looming tomorrow, I wonder if there is any point in going on with the PHP, ASP stuff? Where will I find the time? And will there be any jobs at the end of it? When I look back on my time in the factory, I would have been better off, writing novels and hopping to get them published one day. At least I would have enjoyed it. But I’m always drawn back to the thought of having a way of making money from home, where I’m my own boss, and I don’t have to get my hands... Sign in to see full entry.

ASP, PHP SQL and the whole damn thing! In a last ditch attempt to save my skin, I’m pinning all my hopes on these programming languages. The writing (although its coming along) will never pay enough to be taken seriously as a real job. But with programming, even the small jobs will return a living wage. You can never make anything trying to sell a whole web site. No one wants them, and those that do, can do it for themselves. So the only hope is to pick up pieces of coding jobs. With PHP and ASP... Sign in to see full entry.

Back in the pit! Have you ever had one of those visions where you see yourself back in hellish place you feared from childhood? Well I face one of those now. Having worked in a terrible factory for 11 years, I now face the prospect of having to return to one. Things are so bad, only a miracle will save me, so I have to face the fact that I will have to take any job. The only one on the horizon, is in a factory called Newage. This is a small minded hell hole, full of life’s failures, but the pay... Sign in to see full entry.

Horns of a dilemma! I have tried and tried and tried to make money on the net and honesty does not seem to come into it. Well, at least hard work. If you put yourself up as a writer, you might as well go into a bank and try to get a job, after telling them all you have just walked out of a ten stretch in prison. My only conclusion is to try the adult market. Now this had paid me in the past. Freereviewpass.com has ground to a halt, as they have made a complete mess of their payment system. But... Sign in to see full entry.