Do you remember the first time you screwed up the courage to put yourself out there and got slapped down by someone faster than a fly at a barbecue? You know that awful, cold yet burning feeling in the pit of your stomach that crawls it's way to your face and turns it that lovely shade of red? I do,... Sign in to see full entry.
I’ll never forget the day when I came to know the darkest part of myself. I realized the difference between anger and rage that day. And I came to know the amount of it I held in my heart. It’s not something I want to forget, for by forgetting I fear I will lose the lesson. But to this day it’s not... Sign in to see full entry.
Shame is an emotion I'm all to familiar with. From the day I was old enough to understand the realities surrounding my birth, I came to understand what shame meant. Not just shame for myself, but shame for someone else. I am grateful my mother did not decide to abort me, that she dealt with the... Sign in to see full entry.
One thing I've struggled with in my life is fear of rejection. For despite my tough girl image, I am really very vulnerable and easily hurt. Rejection by those closest to us is something we all deal with, but for me it's the worst kind of pain. As a child I was rejected by my birth father, and I... Sign in to see full entry.
It is very difficult for me to depend on anyone for anything, especially in the case of my life or my heart. I haven’t learned to conquer that fear, it is still my enemy, and I struggle everyday to control it. It basically boils down to trust. Trust in myself, and trust in someone else. I’m learning... Sign in to see full entry.