Friday, July 18, 2008
My Hardest Day
Today I had to take Richard to the nursing home for my five days of rest. It was a quiet ride for the twenty miles to our destination. The silence interrupted only by "I love you". My brain did not want to think and my feet did not want to move when we arrived. I dissasociated and watched myself as...
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Thursday, July 17, 2008
Please Remember Me
O' love, my love, how do I let you go? As each day passes, I'm lost to you as you forget this world. In sickness and in health, was the vow I made. I've kept that vow as best I can; up with you night and day. But I'm tired O' so tired and my body is giving up. My spirit longs to hold you near and...
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Respite
It has been a long three weeks. I have had little sleep and I'm so tired. Although I was so exhausted, I slept for almost 24 hours straight over the weekend. Richard's mind was able to rewire when I didn't wake up and he was able to get up without help, go to the bathroom by himself and find food in...
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008
The Catheter
The night begins about 7pm and he has to be assisted up to void in the urinal. Over radiation of his bladder for prostate cancer makes his urges frequent so evry 30 minutes or so I'm called on to assist him up until the morning hours. Sometimes we do not make it and clothes and sheets we change. I...
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Monday, July 14, 2008
Sleepless Weeks
As one week rolls into another, it is hard to remember the last full night of sleep. Midnight lasts forever he says and it may stay 1:00am for two or three hours. It does certainly seem that way when I have to answer what time it is every 5 minutes. We have to count the hours to when Johnny comes on...
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