Shaferspeare by Songbird

I'd just promised myself that I'd blog daily, and maybe even start a new blog in a different category, up my earnings... I'm either an eternal optimist or the ultimate idiot for thinking I can accomplish all I think I'm going to do. I just finished calculating all the figures needed to file the tax returns. I'm not that much of a procrastinator--admitedly I should have had this junk added up long ago--but husband John's workplace always turns out the W2s late. This year they're "early" for them;... Sign in to see full entry.

Now that I think I'm headed down a new road, I'm thinking a lot about how to generate income....Easier said than done for me. I can't just go out and get a job. I have responsibilities with my animals and I don't want Mom, who doesn't drive, left alone. We live in a rural region with no close family, and without me around, she'd have no one to call, other than 79 year old Uncle Ivan, if I was at work and she needed somebody fast. I'm soul-searching here and I'd like your input: My strengths are... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel real peace today, after these weeks of trouble. It's so much easier to work on all this lagging behind junk now that a lot of the mental torment is lifted. Mom and I have a good friend in our rural neighborhood, willing to come work, help run errands, stuff that we have so much trouble getting done by ourselves. He's a good listener, too, and very intuitive. I feel like an idiot, in a way. He'd told me months back I had no life and deserved a lot better than the crap John put Mom and me... Sign in to see full entry.

I awoke yesterday feeling like the storm was over. I have no visible proof that the recent turmoil in my life has ended, just a feeling, and often, God, faith, and a feeling are all we have to go on in times of trouble. Mom is getting continually better from the salmonella poisoning, staying up almost all day now, working like her workaholic self, so it's Mom 1, salmonella, 0. I cannot change the deaths of my cats, Rora and Ember. All I can do is love them and remember them and know they really... Sign in to see full entry.

The silence in the house after one of my cats has died always deafens me. The ticking of the clock, the refrigerator's motor, all the normal household sounds I usually don't even notice mushrooms into a noise cloud that threatens to overwhelm me. My Ember cat died March 31 at 1:45 p.m. She'd been sick with some kind of massive infection in her nose and throat, and I'd taken her to the vet just days before her death. I'm about ready to give up on all vets--except possibly holistic ones, which... Sign in to see full entry.

We haven't any news from the lawyer's office yet (about Mom's salmonella case), so we're in a waiting mode. The thing about waiting for anything is that sometimes life gets weirder than ever. I still have too much to do, and I should be pouring cat pans instead of blogging, and Mom returned a phone call from a cousin today, so while we're too busy, we're also filling time. Mom's phone call was interesting. This cousin says her brother--also Mom's cousin, of course--believes that our family is... Sign in to see full entry.

I STILL don't know whether I'm comin' or goin' from all this mess... The attorney meeting yesterday yielded no information because the attorney wasn't there. He had to be in court, so one of his employees presented all the paperwork for Mom to sign (concerning the salmonella poisoning). The employee told us the lawyer would have to make a final decision as to whether to take the case, and we'd be notified. Really, other than not having the receipt from the restaurant, I think Mom's on solid... Sign in to see full entry.

I finished the first draft of the legal report we'll turn in to our attorney at the meeting Monday. I never thought I'd be involved in suing anyone again until Mom got violently ill from salmonella she contracted at a restaurant. We'll know more Monday, but there may be a malpractice claim against the ER where I first took Mom, especially since she wasn't really treated and wasn't admitted. I wrote a legal report in 1999 for my Dad's wrongful death lawsuit, which turned out to be critical to the... Sign in to see full entry.

I can't, however, accurately describe what may happen as games. We have an appointment with an attorney about Mom's salmonella poisoning case. We'd like to see if we can stop anyone else from contracting salmonella at the eating establishment which made Mom sick. Tonight, I'll begin a detailed legal report to submit to the attorney. I've been down this road before, when my Dad was misdiagnosed with pneumonia when he'd actually had a heart attack. Dad didn't survive the doctor's mistake. Mom won... Sign in to see full entry.

Today began a new chapter for Mom. Today, for the first time in weeks, she felt a bit hungry. Healthy hunger is a healing sign when a living being, human or animal, has been desperately ill. I take it to mean, for Mom, that her body is winning against the salmonella and all its aftereffects. Today also began legal investigation into possible recourses for what happened to Mom. I can't be specific about our legal plans, other than to say my brother and I will do everything we can to get the food... Sign in to see full entry.