The crazy lady strikes again for Monday, August 9, 2004

Comments on my last post brought up a legitimate point: Was my mention of my suicidal thoughts a marketing ploy? I say no. It's just that I unintentionally wrote a popular post for all the wrong reasons. It is very painful indeed to be suicidal, as I well know. I was in a lot of pain when I wrote the original post, and I remain genuinely touched and grateful that so many of you responded in such a caring and thoughtful fashion. Thanks again. Sign in to see full entry.

I wish words could express the gratitude I feel to all the people who responded to my last post. Thanks to you, I called the suicide hotline suggested by a Blogit member, and I plan on calling a counseling service to which I was referred first thing tomorrow morning. I also chose to write something to someone describing some of the stresses and strains I was under. I hope to receive assistance from this person, although I understand if she isn't able to offer help. Thanks. Sign in to see full entry.

I got the idea for this post from RachelAnna, who talks to a certain extent about her husband's difficulties in this post. I have to admit that the situation I'm in now - the one causing me so much stress - has caused me to contemplate ending it all. I also admit to wishing someone would just come in and rescue me, if only temporarily. I've heard of cases where people have had their lives saved over the Internet, and I dream of people caring enough to do that for me. Sign in to see full entry.

I don't know if anyone else out there does this, but I do. I have at least one pseudonym on Yahoo, on which I have led people to believe that I am someone else. Right now, I'm not able to talk about what I do in much more detail, but suffice it to say I'm rethinking that policy. I started that pseudonym because I was in prime secrecy mode, and because I could get away with it, not because I had any personal or professional reason to be secretive. I started this blog mainly to get over that... Sign in to see full entry.

As Garfield notes in her blog The Secret Life of Cats, I've been agitated this morning. The problems I've been having lately have finally taken their psychological toll. I can just about function to type this entry; my stomach is in knots, and the only thing preventing me from going into the hospital right now is that I don't have the $100 copay my insurance company demands for an ER visit. It occurred to me as I was thinking about that that you are helping me to solve the problem of the ER... Sign in to see full entry.