The crazy lady strikes again for Friday, August 6, 2004

I couldn't resist linking to one of my favorite bloggers, Pecanflower. In this post, she talks about a friend of hers who's a drama queen. I can relate to Pecanflower's distress at the behavior of this drama queen. In fact, I tend to go to extremes when it comes to drama-queen behavior; I've misinterpreted perfectly normal behavior as that of a drama queen out to play "can you top this?" I need to get a life. Sign in to see full entry.

I've noticed something. In all the posts I write about the problems I'm experiencing, I always get at least one comment encouraging me to have faith - that things will hopefully get better. This brings up one question that I ask as a devil's advocate: What if things don't get better, but instead get worse? And what about self-inflicted problems? (Remember that I share the same optimistic attitude of those who post that I ought to have faith that things will get better. It's just that I feel... Sign in to see full entry.

I just read Jemmie211's blog on gratitude, and the latest post in that blog included a quote which really struck home with me. Basically, to paraphrase, the quote said that without adversity, the good times don't seem quite as good. I've made no secret - without revealing all the details - that I'm undergoing my share of adversity right now. It's come out in The Secret Life of Cats, as well as this particular blog. I also make no secret of the fact that I'm in enough pain to want to change... Sign in to see full entry.

I'd like to thank everyone for leaving comments on this and other blogs of mine. It helps - really helps - to know that I'm being read, and that people appreciate my writing. Sign in to see full entry.

I hate being lonely, but I suppose I've painted myself into a corner. If I hate being lonely, I hate even more the thought of people invading my space. I know how I react when people want to come over - it's like someone has suggested that I drink poison. In a way, this journal is intended as a form of self-help, to get over feelings like this. I'm grateful to those of you who read this blog, and to those who care enough to leave comments. Sign in to see full entry.

In another blog, I mentioned the Themestream articles I'd written about addiction to people. I have since learned that some people consider me obsessed with certain people. This is my response. Although I am undeniably addicted to the approval of people - and will often act accordingly, defying my deepest values - much of my best writing is often driven by unhealed wounds. It just seems as if I'm obsessed with certain people. Perhaps the people with whom I'm allegedly obsessed actually have... Sign in to see full entry.