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Kidnykid, please don't do anything final.
My best freind committed suicide at 16, I was 15. It changed me forever and it changed and uprooted his family. I am 49 years old and I still think about my freind at least once a week. I note that you have a daughter about 20 and you have other people in your life that would be devastated. I have contemplated and made weak attempts to end my own life but the thought of my children forever abandoned by my own hand stopped me. I am in recovery for many many years of drug addiction and also being helped for severe recurring depressions. I am getting help.
Please get help now. I was asked to come here by someone who saw your post and was concerned, just as I would have been if I had seen it myself.
posted by
man-boy
on August 9, 2004 at 2:41 PM
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In life I struggled with issues enough, nothing is worth to kill self,
NO MAN IS WORTH ENOUGH TO take your life. U need to put yourself first. You remember how good u are though you are down now, Anything in this world is possible to solve. Believe it, I pray at this moment for safety and joy in your life, I know god touched you and protected to you. I love as a friend, please write.
sue
posted by
Star5_
on August 9, 2004 at 2:34 PM
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It WILL get better. I've been there before!
Please hold on and get help. Things will get better.
posted by
Cella
on August 9, 2004 at 2:08 PM
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I wish I was there with
you. I know you don't know me and I don't know you. But I don't think that matters because I'm concerned about you already. If you are really thinking of doing anything, please take advice and call the 800 number. There are people there who know how to help you. Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. I really want to get to know you!!
posted by
dviews
on August 9, 2004 at 1:40 PM
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Kidnykid
Quirky is right. If there is even the possibility you might harm yourself, you need to do something about it. We can support you, give you love, and care about you, but you have to take the first step...you must take our hands.
There are ways to get support. You can call the suicide hotline at 1-800-7842433, or you can visit
Samaritans. Please do something - call a friend, go to the hospital - if you are considering doing anything, and
remember that we care!
posted by
InherentRights
on August 9, 2004 at 1:29 PM
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Keep writing, keep expressing...and check your email.
posted by
Ariala
on August 9, 2004 at 1:27 PM
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i am here because Inherent Rights sent me to you
I am sorry that I do not know you well, but I know that IR is a good soul and if he is worried then I should be too. I am here to tell you that there are many of us who are willing to listen to you and help. More than a few of us have been somewhere in the vicinity of where you are contemplating going (each person's demons are his/her own). let us help you. tg
posted by
tbgroucho
on August 9, 2004 at 1:23 PM
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Perhaps we can't be rescued here. Wouldn't that be nice?
But at least by keeping on communicating with others it may keep us afloat. best wishes/
posted by
beachbelle
on August 9, 2004 at 1:21 PM
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kidnykid,
You say "contemplating"--what does that entail, exactly? If you are even remotely serious about the possibility of doing this, then you need to get help right this minute...not tomorrow, or the next day or the day after...right this minute. No one is going to swoop in and rescue you, you have to do this for yourself, for your spose, your child and all of the people who care about you. Killing yourself will end your present pain but create a thousandfold more for your family, amd karmically for yourself. I know...my brother ended his life at 24 years of age. What can we bloggers do for you? Well, I for you will not take this lightly. If I am not convinced that you will call someone today for help, I will get Blogit involved. Do you want to be hauled off to the county hospital and put under suicide watch? They will do that. That won't rescue you, but it will alert the people who need to know. If you are just "venting," then convince me. I cannot stand idly by, and wait to see what might happen. "Too late" is not an option for me.
posted by
Julia.
on August 9, 2004 at 1:18 PM
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Suicide isn't the answer, kidnykid
I'm sorry to hear about the stress that you are under. I don't know the circumstances, but it sounds like you are suffering. Know that there are people here - and around you - who care a great deal about your health, and don't want to see you so depressed.
I hope you are just venting here, but if you are not,
please contact someone who can help. If that means going to the hospital, do it. Don't think about the cost, don't think about anything except getting there. Call a friend, call a sibling, call a parent, just call someone. This is a secret that you don't have to live with, and shouldn't. My brother suffers from depression and the only reason he is alive is because he called my mother to tell her that he was feeling suicidal. Now he is a happy person and is living a life he would have never thought possible when he made that call.
There are people here who care, and whatever you are suffering,
your life will get better.
Remember that
there are people who care about you and that we are here for you! Please take care of yourself!
posted by
InherentRights
on August 9, 2004 at 12:58 PM
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Thanks everyone
It's nice to know people do care.
posted by
kidnykid
on August 9, 2004 at 12:55 PM
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There are people who care. I care, have faith and hope. My prayers are with you. I also have been in a bad situation and I have to live on faith and hope. Many hugs go out to you.
posted by
Melodystar
on August 9, 2004 at 12:54 PM
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I care!
Seriously, if there is anything I can do or say, let me know. Suicide is not the answer. If things are that bad they can only get better. Think positively!
posted by
RachelAnna
on August 9, 2004 at 12:46 PM
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