Temporary scars

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Saturday, December 31, 2005

Plans for the new year?

Everyone tries to make a New Year's Resolution. So why should I not join in the 'fun'? In 2005, I made mistakes and found myself to have reached the other side safely enough. That's what's been different this year to every other year of my life so far: I've survived well. I know there's things I... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, December 29, 2005

Part two

[Continued from previous entry] Michael told me that he had a problem with commitment. He said he likes his independance, and went on to say that he feels like he hasn't got a minute to himself lately. I asked him what his priorities are, and he said that he misses playing guitar. I went on to ask... Sign in to see full entry.

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Part one

Since I last spoke of Michael, we've experienced a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Let me try and explain... After I wrote about the night I got seriously drunk, he took me out spontaneously the next Sunday. We talked, laughed, and we had such a brilliant time. He made me feel all those things that... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Just trying to sort myself out

I've not been around here for a while, I've had far too much on my mind. Too much to try and sort through to be able to write. I have much to say about my Christmas holidays, so I'll come back soon to write about that. One piece of good news though, things are better than ever in my relationship... Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, December 19, 2005

A word from Kain, the alternate reality

† Holding on has always been my downfall. I hold on to her, and she pushes me away. There was a time when she needed me more than I needed her. Oh, how I wish those days would return swiftly. † She lets me feel how she feels, and it affects me more than it does her. Recently, her world almost fell... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Losing sight of the target...

Over the last few days, I've been feeling like something's wrong. Like I'm in the wrong place, doing the wrong thing. It's my university course. I dreamt for years that I would be doing this course. I had the interest, I had the drive. And I thought I had the ability. I did expect it to get harder... Sign in to see full entry.

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

Yeah, I do remember...

I remember everything that happened last night, even though I was THE most drunk I had ever been in my life. When Michael is incredibly drunk, he doesn't remember ANYTHING in the morning. What does that say? That he consumes WAY too much alcohol. I haven't heard from him today so far. He's probably... Sign in to see full entry.

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Friday, November 18, 2005

Drunk as a feckin skunk that's really drunk

Right now I am incredibly drunk. The drunkest I have ever been. And that is because Michael hurt me at the most vulnerable time I have been of late. I got a loan from my parents this week. I didn't want to ask, but I needed to, otherwise I wouldn't have been able to eat. I felt so guilty today... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

At least one of us knows where we stand... :(

Michael took me to see his new house this evening. He hasn't properly moved in yet - he hasn't got a bed, and his room still needs carpet. He was doing the painting while I was there. Rupert was there too. I sat in their living room while they painted upstairs. I watched a DVD to keep entertained,... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, November 8, 2005

He's in crisis, part three

[continued from previous entry] So I ignored him today, and had done so since the end of the phone conversation last night. Then, about 24 hours after the call, I got a message from him. It said: 'Darlin? I'm sorry about yesterday. I'm nervous about thsi move but want it to do me good. It's not... Sign in to see full entry.

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