Sunrise to Sunset

That is what you bring out of me. Animal Instincts. I find sometimes that I am no longer the meek human being that I tend to be. I am lustful. I am forceful. I am so strong and I seek exactly what I want. I feel like I can be in control of my life. You allow me to show the sides that have always... Sign in to see full entry.

that eyes were beautiful. At least I always heard it from others about my own eyes. I was somehow taught that blue eyes were beautiful. They were the eyes that everyone wanted. It was the one thing lucky in my life. I remember watching a show where they split little kids up by eye color. It was to... Sign in to see full entry.

We spoke yesterday after a week of silence. I was starting to worry that you no longer felt the way I wanted you to feel. I guess you did though. You said something that you could not explain. I told you I wasn't sure what to say. You wanted to know if I could get baby blankets. You told me they... Sign in to see full entry.

Of things I want to do and things I need to do. Nothing really got done though. I had guests for the holidays. My parents. What an interesting chaotic treat that was. I greet my parents arrival with a mixture of dread and excitement each year. I miss them because deep down they are my parents. It's... Sign in to see full entry.

The dreams I had last night were again, of you. I dreamt of our life together. I hope you had the same dream. I hope you see that there is a future for us. I will wait out the time you need if it means we will be together. I know you are scared. I know that you can feel the same emotions that I... Sign in to see full entry.

so you have taken a vow of celibacy to your master. For the next month you will not indulge your desires. I can indulge mine though. I can indulge them if I should want to. The problem lies in the fact that I want to indulge with you. I understand your reasons, at least I try to. I know it is... Sign in to see full entry.

Men are very interesting creatures to me. At least he is. He doesn't want to be selfish so he says he is not ready for a relationship. If he says it then it's okay to be selfish. I find that interesting. I guess he is right though. If he is honest with me then he's not at fault. If I continue to... Sign in to see full entry.

I went to my room to watch tv last night and then I woke at 3am not even remembering the tv. The lights were all on. I dreamt some crazy things in those few hours but I knew that more was to come. I turned out the lights and got back into bed. Within a few hours I was asleep again. I dreamt of him.... Sign in to see full entry.

can make you sleep very well. I had a tremendous day yesterday. I came home from work with a smile on my face and a spring in my step. I felt comfortable with who I was and what I had been doing. I talked to him last night as well. I talked to him about my day and my insecurity and I demanded that... Sign in to see full entry.

My fingers seem to be taking over more when I start to write. My title was about to be Insecurity. I typed the space and it got me thinking a bit more. In security. Insecurity. The difference is an interesting one. A little space and I go from being not at all secure to being enveloped by security.... Sign in to see full entry.