Sunrise to Sunset

You said that you did not want to be called Selfish. You said that it was easier this way. I said that you are hiding. I know you are hiding. I'm not sure why it is from me. I know you do not want to be called Selfish. That was your one request of me. I will not say it. I will think it though. At... Sign in to see full entry.

I was having a discussion with my friend today. It wasn't actually a discussion but rather some emails back and forth. Either way we were discussing something. We were discussing men. We both have some men and we both like these men. She made a comment though on how she wasn't making up stories... Sign in to see full entry.

Never in my life did I think that I would look to the heavens and be so thankful as I was today. I went to the bathroom like I have been every single day. Hoping and praying that I would get a sign that I'm not pregnant. Today I finally got it. That little red mark that said you are going to have a... Sign in to see full entry.

I seriously am trying to forget about the whole pregnancy thing. I mean it can't be true cause I took a test and it said negative. Though if I don't have a period in the next week I'm gonna be back taking another test and cursing all the way. I do have the hopeful signs of pimples today. Who ever... Sign in to see full entry.

It's true that I tend to obsess about things. I think I secretly enjoy it. I have tried to remain calm about this whole being pregnant thing. I truly believe that maybe I'm just stressed about it and that is why my period is late. I finally explained to my 2 best friends today about why I have been... Sign in to see full entry.

I am going to snap soon. I should have my period any day now. Actually I should have had it a few days ago but my calendar might be off a little. I have cramps. I feel like I have my period but no period. I'm not liking it. I am seriously finding myself looking around and wondering how I am going to... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm the type of person who listens to the subtle signs in life. I believe that everything happens for a reason and that I need to listen to every little detail because it will tell me something. I wrote yesterday about worrying that I'm pregnant. I am still enjoying that panic but what made it... Sign in to see full entry.

I wonder if it is just me and my insanity. Every time I have sex I panic. Well not every time but if I have recently had sex and then I get any kind of pain in my abdomen I start to wonder if I'm pregnant. It drives me insane. I start to panic. I start to wonder what I will do if I actually am... Sign in to see full entry.

So a comment touched on something else about my conversation last night. The whole first time thing with someone. There is definately something to be said about having a connection. If you care about someone things can only get better and stronger and deeper than they were before. I told my friend... Sign in to see full entry.

My new man explained his theory on why we connect so well on a physical level. He said it was a karmic thing. As we laid together last night he told me that he had always been obsessed with the idea of being with a woman. He can remember being 5 or 6 years old and playing doctor with the girls in... Sign in to see full entry.