Jeff's Journal

I feel like I've turned a corner, both financially and healthwise. It seems like I'm on the right combination of medications now, I feel better than I have in a long time. Surprisingly I got my full check today, leaving me with 17 hundred and change in the bank. Of course a chunk of that will have... Sign in to see full entry.

Seven straight working days without a sick day. Not much, but a lot better than I've done lately. Maybe I"m in for a long good stretch like I had last summer/fall. Course by that time I better have been reassigned. My checking account just fell under $1,000 and payday is tomorrow. Yay!!! Of course I... Sign in to see full entry.

A clean sweep. A whole week with no sick days. That hasn't happened in two months. Today was the only day that was a bit shaky. Had one of my dry heave attacks while getting ready this morning. I shook it off and came on in. Funny how those attacks never happen at work, only when I'm getting ready... Sign in to see full entry.

Felt better today than I have in a long time. I don't know how long it will last but I'll take it. That's the one good thing about having depression, it makes me appreciate it more when I do feel well. Things are looking relatively well financially too. Even if I only get half a check next time, I... Sign in to see full entry.

Made it again today, 3 days in a row. Yay!!! Feel pretty good too. It's been a couple of months since I made four in a row. Got a new tire yesterday. I never have to buy a whole set of tires because something's always going wrong with one so I replace them one at a time. Still keeping up with the... Sign in to see full entry.

Made it to work again today. Already beat last week. I'll expect half a paycheck next week and anything more will be a pleasant surprize. Cash flow is decent so I should be able to handle half a check with no problem. Want to go see the Secret at church on Friday. I want to invite Sheila since she's... Sign in to see full entry.

A pretty decent day. Of course these days any day I'm well enough to work is a good day. Ms Johnson fussed at me this morning but was nicer later. I don't take it personally, she's just stressed as we all are. See my therapist tonight. I look forward to seeing her, she's a really good therapist for... Sign in to see full entry.

Doing a bit better today. Maybe all that walking and being outside helps. Still shaky though. I fell like I could be flat on my back at any moment. That Kimberly is delicious. I hope she keeps coming to the meetings. Sandy hasn't been there in a couple months. I tried calling her a couple weeks ago... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel lousy again, had trouble getting out of bed this morning. In fact I didn't get out of bed this morning. I felt a little better once I got out. Still it's kind of scary, it feels like I'll never be well again. I know I will be, but it feels like I won't be. Uncle Ray had surgery, they removed... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm not doing well. For people that get paid so much money psychiatrists do an awful lot of guessing. If I knew my job as well as the average psychiatrist knows his/hers I'd be fired. Anyway Dr Ashai thinks we can balance things out by decreasing my effexor. Any time I can take less medicine, I'll... Sign in to see full entry.