Jeff's Jots

I was shopping in the mall when I felt the urge to "answer nature's call" I went into the nearest department store found the restroom only to learn they had a pay toilet. The deal was you had to pay a dime just to get into the rest room--I guess they got around sex discrimination that way. Anyway I... Sign in to see full entry.

I thought I'd make a list of things that make life worth living. That way next time I feel suicidal I can look at the list and talk myself out of it. 1. Women 2 Blogging 3 Women 4 Baseball 5 Women 6 Pizza 7 Women 8 Chocolate Chip Cookies 9 Women 10 A good bowel movement 11 Women 12 Bruce Springsteen... Sign in to see full entry.

As I wait for my medication to kick in, I remind myself to be patient. I think of that prayer "God grant me patience. And I want it right now!" Sign in to see full entry.

Being diagnosed with depression has changed me in a number of ways. One of the things that's changed is my attitude toward medication. I was always wary of medication. I always suspected that medication would most likely do more TO me than it did FOR me. That's still true to some degree. But I have... Sign in to see full entry.

Since I've been diagnosed with depression, I've been getting a lot of advice. It's basically a good thing, it shows that people care and want to help. Generally speaking though advice isn't very helpful. No one else really knows how I'm feeling or all the circumstances involved so they can't really... Sign in to see full entry.

Often when people are depressed, it is said that the person is "fighting depression" or "battling depression" I don't want to look at it that way. It seems to me if you fight something, it fights you back. Instead I'm celebrating depression. I"m celebrating the good things that have happened as a... Sign in to see full entry.

Looking back on it, I think I've been depressed since the early 90s and didn't know it. In 1992-3 I had a part time job working with at a sheltered workshop with a client who was mentally retarded, mentally ill and autistic. The job was only part time, paid very poorly and had no benefits. I was out... Sign in to see full entry.

Having been home sick so much these past couple of months I've been watching a lot more TV than usual. In the process, I've noticed some things. For example the other day I was watching a rerun of "Yes, Dear" Most people would say that "Yes Dear" is a typical dumb sitcom. It is a typical sitcom, but... Sign in to see full entry.

It's ironic that I've been diagnosed with depression, because all my life people have been telling me how cheerful I am. People remark that I always seem happy, I'm always smiling. Strangers smile at me in response to my smile and often I don't even realize I'm smiling. Several people autographing... Sign in to see full entry.

My favorite thing to say since I've been diagnosed with depression is "I don't care" I don't care whether I make it to work or not I don't care if the bills get paid. I don't care if I see or talk to my friends I don't care how my apartment looks I don't care how I look. I don't care who wins the... Sign in to see full entry.