The Words Of Pain and Sadness of Pegesus

"> they step further upon the threshold of no return there is nothing to stop the progression with each stage they encounter till point of no return we can only sit back and sadly watch as the wheels of alzheimrs keeps turning from the onset of alzheimers to the end we keep track of all our loses... Sign in to see full entry.

"> i sit here thinking always thinking and feeling emotions ive never been allowed to show to anyone i feel so much but dont understand how to share them emotions denied to a child comes back to haunt the adult maybe by writing my words i may find a way to help me understand who i am why i am the... Sign in to see full entry.

"> traveling day by day month by month year by year searching for my elusive answer what is this thing i have no one understands my quest no one shares my pain i travel this lonely road searching for some clues i have lost my family through alienation and death they also feared what i might find... Sign in to see full entry.

"> deep within my heart resides a place only for my sons filled with memories i saved up for those rainy days when id drag them out and reminisce of a time past the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul parents sometimes make decisions they feel is the best only to have them come... Sign in to see full entry.

"> sometimes i spend my days in a reflective mood trying to understand who i am did i live up to my potential or am i still striving to become who i am really to be never knowing my place in life can be undaunting sometimes i always seemed afraid to put forth afraid someone might notice to become... Sign in to see full entry.

"> she tries so hard to remain independent she fights to have everything her way it is hard to pick up pieces of her frustrations it is harder still to see the confusion everyday more and more independence is lost she refuses to quit in her ways she is afraid she continues to fight even knowing she... Sign in to see full entry.

"> i sit here thinking never resolving anything i cant remember do you remember who i am i cant anymore its too hard its too hard to try an remember anything at all anymore it is so much easier just to go with the flow it has control is this how it is for them can we imagine i slam my fist into the... Sign in to see full entry.

"> im done i dont have to deal with alzheimers again or do i the disease has its claws deep inside me i will never be the same again im still part of it not one of us will ever be able to escape this monster we suffer as caregivers now we suffer as has beens caring for momma somehow committed me to... Sign in to see full entry.

"> depression ignores common sense your world becomes chaotic you live deep in your dark cave reality ceases to exist you are lost medications will help but sometimes the body build a tolerance they no longer help so you must find another that brings the sun out a depressive disorder is not the end... Sign in to see full entry.

"> her passing was quiet but she finally resolved things i will miss her terribly but she in now a whole entity now will be the time to pull my life together again it wont be easy without momma but i will somehow she was a dreamer who forgot how to dream the hardest part of a loss like this is the... Sign in to see full entry.